my mind's breaking down at every sheer thought of you
So you're gonna keep delaying this trust of mine
Fate is now, i'm yours
I hope nothing is too late, I hope the day will be saved
♥

God, we reach our hands out for Your highest call

eww.
I feel stinky and sweaty and disgusting, probably cuz i have been a very independent girl today, taking public transport. I dont understand why but I kinda feel God right now, had youth just now. I walked up and down the SIM path three times(no no no i am not exercising) But you know what? I love the lord (:



Today while walking to thomson i saw this lady crying in one corner, begging everyone walking past her for bus money. She wanted to go home, apparently but had no money. So she stood in one corner, crying, begging for money, then she asked me. I searched inside my wallet but being the super judgemental me, I examined her face all the while! I was looking for evil grins, happy/evil grins and smirky looks, but all i saw was a sincere face. And I felt so bad. I had no money so I walked back in, and she just stood there. /:




So i ran in to get a eighty cents coin for her bus fare, and she disappeared.



I bought a mtv shirt today at thomson, i love the bunny part. Its from the holland village market shop which sells vintage tees. Today i went to ruth's church - kinda big, but nicer than my church. And the youths are pretty cool cos they're over 500? I think.



♥
Toodles. I have eoys to revise for.

you breathed life into my everything
you reached your hand out for my hand
everything i think about, i think about you
you're enraging my mind

Some cheena thing i found on the net.

english eoys today. i couldnt complete my summary on time, my summary exceeded 130 words and my letter writing had to be done in the last ten minutes of my precious time. And for the world-breaking record, i did my summary in five minutes. I asked for extra string, my teacher picked up my old string and stared at me with big eyes. And I had no money today.

I really hope the next three eoys, would seriously be better. The mugging season is gna be over in two weeks time, and after that its all shopping, sleeping and talking.

Today was one scary day mann. chinese eoys were pretty easy. the composition was okay but the paper was frigging hard, especially the one of mr bean. I practically wanted to sleep throughout it, sucks i tell you. mr tan laughed by himself today while looking at the chinese paper, and people were sleeping. How cool is our class yeah!(: I learnt abit of chinese yesterday, cramming all i could possibly cram into my brain. laoshi was quite scared yesterday she went through the whole chinese book with me and a satisfyingly 2 hours! :D
There's four more to go, loves!(:

Go compare us with your other freaking classes
Why do you even bother to teach us in the first placee? >:(


Today shafiqah, siti and me went to the library with good intentions to study - but ended up using our handphones on the second level of the library, taking pictures and talking a million things that we can possibly think of!(: I love you all. We had fun hiding the phones, didnt we?


Speaking of skinny jeans, amanda already has skinny jeans! And she looks super guuuud in them. I wonder if my fat legs can even fit into skinny jeans. I feel kinda fat todayy.




And He said, My presence shall go with thee, and I will give thee rest. Exodus 33:14

Captain Oats shall be returning sooon from his spaceship, daddy! I want tooh see Captain Oats. He gives me delicious oats!

Eoys are near, we all need a moment to cry

changed our seats today and im sitting kilometres away from my old partner and for the whole day today we had self study/revision, but obviously we didnt do any work. I mean,selfstudy/revision in a class where you can just while your hours away?i dont mind,man.but sitting at the back watching mr goh get pissed was really good. I mean, you can get the full view of everything happening and boy mr goh do you have a nice mole. so prettYYyyy(:


Oh my legs friggin hurt. They suck, my legs. They really do. Took 855 with rachel and we almost toppled all over the bus with papers and files in one hand, and a bag in the other. I bet i probably looked like an ass on the bus. Stupid rosy made us stay back to complete brochures and posters.Pissed and angry and tired. I absolutely hate this mugging season.

Do you know how to wear makeup, dearie?


Today i photocopied science questions. I love acids and alkalis. learning them just makes me feel happy, haha. I didnt really do any revision in class.


And plus, i cant stand you.
So would you please give me a break, and stop blaring your complaints at me!>:(



Good luck for your eoys loves!(:

Some hearts, they just get all the right breaks

im going on a hiatus from today - back when i finish revising for eoys? so that will add up to a total of two weeks, so i hope you will miss me.ALOT(:
i hate physics. because today i got a example of a science paper format and im gonna throw away ten marks because I dont know how to do physics!):


I have got into the eoy-ish mood.well, dont blame me. i've become the goody two shoes you all have been waiting for. prefects are already chasing after me for my skirt, and au contraire, i think my skirt is perfectly acceptable. its at knee length and they're telling me to go buy it three sizes bigger. and prefects love tugging at my socks, and discussing low socks with pamela yeo is interestingg. a sensitive topic to touch on, y'know? and i threw away two working condition socks, haha. im your gangster/act cool at heart.

Nicole is the winnayeeee!

Fujiwara stickers are the hotness,gosh he looks damnn hot in the pictures!(:

Jesus, You're my everything, so take into Your hands whatever I have and strip me of my worldly possessions.

haha! I guess the anonymous king really sparked alot of weird things huh! esther has other anonymous stalkers saying she's hot (besides me), anonymous x!



18 Sep 07, 21:06
x: That totally Proves you being hot, :P

18 Sep 07, 21:05
x: I totally agree with Anon, sriously


Maybe the anonymous king should stop? Hello esther wong you sexy hottie :}

Well get lost. What more do you want me to do?

scuse' moi?

my sisters are all spoilt spoilt brats.
first, they refuse to flag for taxis and i have to stand in the rain, holding my books in one hand and my bag and flag for a taxi. so unglam. then the even more glamourous jillian frantically waved her hand in the rain and flagged the glamourous silvercab taxi
-_-


I'm not sure whether I want to continue guitar anymore
):

Eek, I cried over guitar again. Sheesh. God help me.

Well, Foolish Patty. Ha ha Patty, ha ha!

Something I found on my sister's hotmail apparently funny. How can Teddy spell purposely as purpasly.And seven year old Teddy can type, especially the foolish patty, Ha ha Patty, ha ha part.
I really wonder how the primary sixes are coping now. I cried on my revision for psle before - I screamed my lungs out and even hit my father, whacking him and screaming at him because I was angry, stressed and pissed.


Well, thats history!
Life is guuuuud now(:

Eoys coming in 5 days! Everyone scream, weehaa!

Eek, you nanapop chicken.

Seeing young girls fight with young boys is apparently very interesting. the boys call the girls fatty bom boms while the girls call them nanapop chicken(:
I remember making fun of nanapops on my primary school bus rides home with Cheryl. I dont understand how Cheryl managed to put up with my eeky disgusting ways. I sit in the bus with my legs wide open(and my panties werent nice either, they were hello kitty) and sleep on the bus like some ass, snoring my hours away, and i planned some devilish plans to torture little children, because there was no airconditioning at the back seats and always running and squashing my way in front to get the aircon switched on, not caring about the poor little primary ones sitting next to me.
I feel so devilish now just thinking of how disgusting i was. Cheryl must feel super happy now - but I heard she's very quiet now. I remembered what I used to call her too!Smartypants



Now that I sit on public buses I see more disgusting stuff.Haha(:




Today I mugged at thomson with ruth again - i finally know how to master all sorts of area questions, and im still mugging for plane mensuraments or cuboids and algebraa(: Talked with ruth and bought her hershey's sundae pie!

Eek,you nanapop chicken.

i love deng xiaoping, i admire him very very much

Deng Xiaoping I love you!(:

whowhatweardaily.com

whowhatweardaily.com is super fantastic,haha. i literally went crazy(:

It's a girl's thing
♥

I especially love the lanvin inspired jewel tone flats! Especially the greennnn, and the mary jane flats! Ooh and i love everything here, i badly need to go shopping after eoys!):

i just love looking through old photographs

When we thought there was no evil in the world and our lives seemed to be filled with endless joy and laughter, and when we loved everything across our ways
♥

Look at my shoes! I am still wearing them now.Haha unfortunately my foot hasnt grown very much!):

Worship is to feel in your heart and express in some appropiate manner a humble but delightful sense of admiring awe and astonished wonder and overpowering love in the presence of that most ancient mystery, that majesty which philosphers call the First Cause, but which we call our Father who art in heaven

-A.W Tozer



God I really love you, the Godhead, your spirit three in one and everything you ever posessed.
You cleanse me of everything, strip me of my sins and replace my sin with your own precious blood. You could never let me go either, you stare at me through my windows and remind me to put You first, to do your everything because you are my Lord God almighty

♥

The Executionist(:

it makes me feel so good to see mr goh tormented under our wrath:} Today was one of the funnest days ever, seeing him get so flared up and angry and so pissed, screaming and scolding us when we're not even listening to a single thing he says. and we'll make fun of his pants because they seem short. And because he was carrying this green tote bag me and ruth scolded him for losing his manliness and he replied back that the bag camee for free at ntuc cos there was a sale.
-_-



Today i got caught two times in a row by prefects(lucky lucky me) because of my socks. I hate my socks. In the end I threw both socks away in the trash can, and went up with my socks higher than ever. And actually my feet feels much more comfortable, haha, knowing there's no squashed sock into a cotton ball at the end of my school shoe(: And its not only for the nerds - i think the nerds come to school with their feet comfortably pampered and luxuriated in their shoe rather than those with squashed cotton balls at the end of their shoes.



Oh and mdm azizah talked about hanging. I like how Deng Xiaoping rolled all over the protestants with a bulldozer when they went against his wishes and my teacher's description of how people in singapore get hanged.
I want to be the executionist, the one which pulls the string and watch the person die. It's quite sick actually, but I can do the job for three months.
Oh I know, call me a sadist, i know(:

Today was like, we had a free whole day?
We had no common test so we were expected to study for eoys, but we talked alott. then later we had art and ih so we went down to the comp lab. and all we did was friendster-checking and gossiping and surfing sites? Haha yes and even from the windows I can see cassandra checking everything(:

I want a xangaa skinnnnnn):


My two pimples wont go away too!

look at my outrageous guitar results that can drop from zero in week two):

Ah my stupid pimple and a thousand people are requesting for them. Now my pimple has got two friends!

Well, call me irresponsible

i feel so mean. i did something mean today i feel like laughing behind my computer anonymity. From now on I shall tag people randomly using a secret identity! See whether they can guess me. Succkkaaaa(:


I cant find my physics notes! i only can find my chem and bio. i already revised chem so i dont really need to listen to stupid stupid goh anymore - not unless I have a thousand questions to bombard him with(:
I'm still halfway revising bio - i hate biology especially when it comes to stupid plants who photosynthesis(yes i am very bochup, thankyou)
I am still finding my notes frantically.
Well, call me irresponsible. I have two projects I have yet to pass up and I am blogging when my tuition teacher is waiting patiently for me downstairs.


Muahaha>:)
I guess, its my theory of life.



Because now I cannot remember what homework I have to do I use my strawberry shortcake notebooks.



eoys! dont you just hate them.
I'm so angry.
But its only twenty four days to a whole day of shopping with ruth(:
And probably gorging on kentucky with thomson plaza friends.I want.
there's this whole tensed up eoy-ish atmosphere when you get to school. And it sucks,becausee its coming in less than the number of my fingers days.
9.



I see you walking down an empty street
You grasp my hand
And walk down the road with me singing nursery rhymes

♥

I have been skipping guitar lessonssss!
This super duper sucks. Wilson's gonna kill me, or whatever his name is.

And I love you, do you know that?
My heart bruises at the thought of your name
Your words drip like a honeycomb with every word you speak
I see you holding a daisy in your hand
You hold it silently and let it go, wishing for the day to never end
You ruin my mind, encompass my mind
I love you.

Welcome your second Sharpay :}

yay i've got a big humongous disgusting pimple. Requests for photos of my pimple are gladly taken, just drop me an email and you see my disgusting pimple,muaha.
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today i mugged at burger king again with ruth. im getting quite good at chem - so i dont really need to listen to mr goh's lesson anymore, muahaha. my head is ballooning! I love studying suspensions and mixtures now so salt and water really amuse me much during mugging sessions.SeriouslyyyYYy.


Everything went well today - judith and priscilla's birthdays!




Happy Birthday Judith and Priscilla!
May everything you wish come true and may the Lord God bless you alot<3


Just trusting the Lord God with all my might now, and I know God is gonna work out a plan for my life though I am not sure yet! -_-
You're gonna show them to me when I die? I love you.



Oh yes and welcome your second hsm 2 Sharpay! I'm going to act like a bitch in my music test(i think) and walk in the music room and go, 'give me a beat.' And plus, I am perfecting my bitchass walk with a little help. Haha! Sharpay style, yeaaaa. :}


Studying with ruth is the bomb cos - not only do we catch up but we also study for eoy<3


We're going shopping after eoys!





Jesus, I know
You wooed me, pursued me, paid the price for me
Jesus, I know
I don't wanna leave you again
Take me in your arms
And never let me go

i am kean, and i am a guest blogger!(:
i am so kawaii neh and im only primary two
and im currently single so ani girlfriend so step into my ride!give me a ring,baby!
Yes I know,I am perverted.

I look half dead,eyeballs hanging out and disgusting eyebags.


Im monstrous.

So, what else bullshit do you want from me?

Are you even listening, God?

I think I'm gonna collapse anytime soon
I dont need anything, I just need some peaceful sleep and return back to the good ole' days where my mum forced me daily to sleep at nineeee. Now I miss that nagging
I dont want to cry myself out when I get back my papers, my eyes all red-dy and fish-yy and my face looks scratched and bloated for crying. Trust me the sight's not prettyy.
♥









I would really love to go holidaying and forgetting all this studying bullshit right here.
Jillian recommended Red bull but its so full of glucoseeee): And plus its not like I'm gonna stay up late to mug or something.Haha, i wish. and i will just end up falling asleep,btw.
Studying at sim after church tomorrow and tuition. Which is a first!(:

i really need a break,
all this mugging is getting me nowhere



Succccks! Its only one week to my orals):

today at serene poor ruth had to duck her head while we were halfway mugging and she was halfway through her math, haha poor ruth :}


and anyway it was quite scary today while we were studying at serene. these other two girls from express were sitting right next to us, and suddenly there was this big acs clique at one corner of macs. then suddenly bloooood:(
Ruth started going hyper, getting all scared so i lent my pe shirt to her to hug. Something soft, i guess:) we were both peeking out and looking at all the police crowded outside macs. Haha what a memorable mugging day, Ruth :} We made friends with some nanyang primary girls - or rather Ruth did(: It's quite cool the way she interacted with them. I could never interact with young children, I can already forget about my eleven kids - my football team):


We took pictures in the bus and met primary school friends there, and before Rachel left I bought for her a takeaway bag of small fries, I guess I owed her.
And I had a nice day, Ruth!(:


Tomorrow is going to be intensive study session for myself - end of years are drawing near soon. And my science grades are gonna need some pulling up, and my chinese toooooo): Reminder to self: Do Not Go Out. Imma gonna study before youth starts.
And when my exams end - I can loook forward for shopping with friends, with Ruth and catching up on some quality sleeping time because I'm gonna need it:)
I want summer dresses, and I'm saving up for a serious shopping spree now.



I want alotttt of things.



Gotta study study study to keep myself distracted!

Baby bananana wannna muffins<3

im thinking of baking banana muffins. I know, its a very random thing, haha, I want it baked golden brown and i ambrosia (copied from lit. poetry. i dont even know what the hell it means) Something to do with eggs on top of a bun. Banana wannana muffins<3

I've been trying to mug now, but everytime I do I endd up falling asleep. i guess its a very usual thing for me, hahah.I have to mug with people. i have to mug with friends. Me and Judith arranged for a study date on Tuesday again..and now Ruth andd I want to mug tomorrow, probably at thomson. I'm gonna peer tutor with Judith, cos' she's good with cylinders. I suck at cylinders, I hate that topic >:( I want to tell Ruth many a things, Im just gonna bust my seam at her tomorrow. Haha, good luck Ruth(:

I'm eating tooo much macs nowadays, I'm gonna grow fat :O

Today my father was staring at this group of sji guys in macs, haha and i thought one of them was really hot. so my father stared for awhile, then ate his burger and looked back again. Then i turned around and he went,

''i know which guy you like.''

i was quite shocked, then he slowly pointed to the hot one :o Oh horror! Haha, it was quite funny. We walked off and went shopping for awhile. Bought my topshop shirt after alllllllll. Yay babeyyy(:

Today I made a bet with shafiqah to not eat for one day during her fasting,but in the end i gave in to temptation and attacked poor amanda jane yap for cola sweets in the classroom.

Heeheehee, I am eviLLLLL

Guess what people really need now?



Me :}

One dream I've even wished
I'm chasing after it faster than ever
Who will be there for me?
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My mother doesnt want me to call her mother anymore. Cos' i am a sickening, sickening woman.

y'know mr goh is a freaking ass
He taught us a stupid topic when he obviously knows he was supposed to teach us in term one. I rebelled against him and he gave me two warning points and he made me cry on my last day of term one.
Cowbodoh. Idiot/:



Tuesday I was kinda bummed, so I called up Ruth and we had a veryyy nice conversation. I was feeling so freaking dumb. I just had to talk to someone and I knew that person would be Ruth. So she really cheered me up, and I continued with what seemed to be a disgusting day after that.
Today for art we did brochures, and we stayed back for a little while to send the project over to netashya.then i walked home with estherr, which was very niceeee(:



Realized that my sister and rachael arent really talking):





We gossiped all the way and I talked about ___________, who is freaking irritating. you think you're all that huh?Always thinking you're the best, bitch. I feel like a fool to have been your friend cos' you never even treated me like oneeeee.
@#$%!




Apparently, everyone loves skinny jeans!
Let's go skinny jeans shopping, babeyyyyy!

♣♠♦♫♥

yohoho and a bottle of rum

today i had a really nice talk with zemaine. we sat outside the computer lab talking for quite a long while and eating snacks at the same time. we stayed back for our bougainvillea park brochure printing, and we both went down for a meal because zemaine was hungry. I had a really fun time with her, and we studied together downstairs along with quraisha, maria, dalreena and judith. when we got down judith was reciting some play, and i got started on my composition. I guess I shouldn't have judged people so fast.

At first during orientation I thought the whole class were pineapples. I hated moving in secondary school initially, haha. But i made friends with Rebekah, Cassandra, met so many people on 855, like ruth, natalie, rachel ming. If not for 855 i wouldnt have made so many friends

And they really dully rock(:

I hated primary school.It sucked for me.

I'm falling down faster than I've ever imagined.

I hope what I've decided to do isnt going to make anyone angry

Today i sat on the roadside in my school uniform, talking on the phone with rachel ming.

:)

I dont call anyone eye candy

funny wunny hunny bunny

Worship involves awareness of God, awe in His presence, adoration of Him because of His excellencies and acts, and affirmation of praise in all He is and does.

-Dr. Vernon Grounds


Thinking of inviting esther for high school musical haha(:
As many times as I've said how lame high school musical 1 was, i take everything back cos' this one's gonnnna be guuuud, and i've already bought the pretty soundtrack!

just went to Guthrie, and I really want a football team. Eleven children, and I want the girl to be the goalie. How nice is that gonnna be mannnn. High socks and a red jersey, and i will have a pretty backyard for them to play footie in
♥




Do you think staring away will help

funny clowns and the circus

today we watched Paying the Price. thought we were watching rachel's tears, but the show ended up okay(: It just seemed so wrong to see a teacher kissing a super young woman. and oh my his shoes dont match too! white shoes with grey pants! soooo wronggg :p


But the show reminded me again of God, and whenever I think of un-believing in God, I can hear my grandfather knocking on my head and screaming at me gently, waking me up. I love my grandfather very much, and I wish he was here):


Just did a lemon mask! Haha, i feel so white.




I have pimples and a untanned skin, hooray/:




I'm going to grow closer to God, and that is for sure.

you're overwhelming me now

ruth goh!(:
haha yesterday during guides we were screaming while looking at the seventeen magazine while screaming what we liked.especially when we looked at dresses!haha. we must really go out during the nov/dec holidays, far east plaza! i love you dearie :p


i was just thinking about the maltitude of friends i have been making at guides. Hey, we're cool nerds, coolio.Nevertheless, had so many friends in guides!<3
Frankly to be said the bestest friends I ever made was on 855, and at Thomson.Haha(:


I hate studying. Mugging sucks, especially when the world outside is waiting for you /:

beautiful zemaine (:

yes, she loves me dearly (:

here's some pictures! cant wait for study session with Judith at Serene!(:

Wednesday at ang mo kio hub was the best, haha. Had a very nice time. Annabel tiong, you pervert pervert(: Haha, i love you all. Should have more of these outings yeah (:

Had a haircut a few days ago. My signature long fringe has gone! Bye bye floppy fringe ):

Today was grandparents day, and apparently I learnt alot about science and aeroplanes, because Ruth, Rachel and I had to take care of Mr Lawrence and he is really cool and hip. We were all so happy when he won the aeroplane competition! We talked for quite a long while, and he gave us biscuits that Ruth liked alot(: He won a big lunchbox full of wheat biscuits, and I even have his picture (: Weehaa. And he knows Lim Bo Seng!

I want to watch Hairspray/:

Actually I'm quite glad i didnt pon today's meeting - really learnt alot. Thanks Rachel (:

Stupidity is my best cure {:

so, shut up and drive

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Projects baby

Met up with annabel,rachel,amanda and zemaine at library for science project today!Meeting up with Judith for intensive study at Serene.

Note intensive {:

Seriously, my father thinks i go to Serene to check out hot guys.

I have to mug,mug,mug ):

I seriously need to pull up my chinese.Haha yes. Cant go out anymore, so many nice things i want. Went to amk hub after project, there was this shop selling beautiful printed dresses!): My parents and teachers are already complaining about my chinese,telling me to pull up my socks.

I want black skinny jeans!
♥

Oh and while waiting at the taxi stand for my mother i was having a nice heart to heart talk with amanda wee. It was the best so far. I just had to spill on what i felt, i mean, i have been bottling up in me for a super long time. Everything just had to come out, y'know?

Ah I love my chilli crab much(:

I'm reading Rachel's Tears now. Believing in God drives you crazYyY. Sometimes you believe in him, sometimes you don't. I guess I dont really want to believe in a fraud, but neither do i want to believe in someone who doesnt exist at all. But sometimes, you really see the God spirit in a person. Rachel Joy was killed for justifying her faith, and living out her life according to God's purpose.

Rachel rules, I tell you.

There goes your seventh month ghost festival. haha (:

I am processing your pea soup

(edit/)
It's really not what you did to me
Where's the childlike curiousity we used to nurse
Dont come running after me
You've shattered all my hopes in half, I have yet to erase the stains


venting all my anger at venezio was guuuud. met up with sam sim and jillian came along, and dunking all my worries in one of the thickest, richest ice creams selections was the best
Today bought white shirts and chocolate for my dog.

I'm gonna mug my guts out during the September holidays, the rain is pouring and it seems like an endless drug to my soul. I've got lots of catching up to do and there's only a few weeks left to finals.Sheesh. I failed my chinese, and most probably im going to fail my overall score.Fantastic.Fantastic,hipee.
I want so many things. September holidays have projects, remedials and cca waiting for me. I'm having extra tuitions and I am about to explode any minute.
I wish.

Went back to scgs on Friday. Not many teachers recognized me. Mrs.Kam recognized me and because I felt so mean I gave her the chocolate Judith gave me. I don't know why I did that. Mrs.Kam was biased,anyway.

xxx.



Time heals all wounds, thats what you will say. You trusted that person so much, and you visualized you and her taking photos, spending your secondary school days in peace. But you turn around and there you go, she stabs you in your back. You choke back tears and remind yourself that your tears will go away and everything will be fine because Barney says so. You believed in everything you could but your tears couldn't stop flowing. Your eyes stung with pain and hurt - she duped you for the popular people. She backstabbed you, called you a bitch and bitching about you seemed like her favourite pastime.
So much for friends, and so much for primary school