I know, both this blog and my life is getting really voring to read also. haha, im really sorry :D

Another boring day today againn, went to thomson with my dad in the morning to rent and borrow videos and movies. borrowed transformers but wanted to borrow disturbia and shutter muchh): my sister borrowed all the bitchy high school shows to watch and sappy love shows, korean dramas. bought my death note manga and then went to buy yoghurtt!:)


Haha it was really good bonding time today with my lovely perverted father :D


I really love my dad, he bought the deathnote manga no matter how flipping pricey it was ( five bucks for thirty plus pages of paper just to see two geniuses talk crap throughout the whole thing)

Thank you dad, so much ♥


I havent got started on my holiday homework yet, i think i should go start now, im blogging and going online too much already :D

Death note manga is damn addicting, i really can't stop reading and thinking about it! i already finished twenty smth chapters today.

I have absolutely nothing to do! Argh somebody give me something to do!!

I'm rotting away slowly in my own home

My cousin rocks socks, i tell you ♥

today is a really boring day.
the house has practically and absolutely nothing to do noww. i've been youtubing alott, and its very fun, and reading death note manga onlinee. I'm already at chapter ten!:)
other than cycling down to the minimart and buying sour power and chips to binge eat and amuse myself with, there's really nothing to do. im in no mood to go out either. holidays are really killing me):

And reading books and jodi picoult doesnt help either. so i've been cooped up in this damn house with nothing to do. I've also been praying alot to God lately these days about alot of issues - and to give me something to do :D Yesterday was really one of my funnest days with esther and throughout my boring holidays though its probably only seven days now. South division day was fun, though it was really slack all the way, and i went neoprinting with priscilla and pamela yeo. THAT was fun(:

YEAH. so thats my fantastic holidays, all i can remember.
i need excitement in my life pronto pronto pronto.

Okay i'm going back to my manga now :)

hola hola, i walked eight bus stops! achievement much:)

had a haircut today with esther at koyee, and it still looks the same abit. kinda happy with it because i mantained my vemo fringe and didnt have to have it cut. so now my lovely fringe is below my eyees!
really didnt have anything to do today, so i randomly asked esther over to my home while watching deathnoteee. haha it was rather kewwl today we went thomsonnn and although i jabbed my sister in her arm and poked her randomly and she hit me in my ass back, it was still fun. we fought like childish assholes on the thomson escalator, jabbing, kicking, just because she thought i was uncool to have 'facebook' and thought she was damn cool just because she has facebook nowwwww.

Grah. i hate dkfjfghuifgufyguhgiuhdhbcj faceboook! D:<

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

back from the most fantastic sleepover though it was filled with constant constant nagging nagging:)
my grandmother insulted my bolster! this morning when i was walking out from the house all changed and ready to leave with the my nose to the bolster my grandmother said it was 'silly for a thirteen year old to walk around with her bolster slung over her arm!'
Haha quite cool right. dont really care actually. my baby cousin even said my bolster was 'chouchou'

HAHAHAHHAHH my bolster rules baby :)


I brought along jodi picoult to read but got bored instead and started camwhoring by myself in a small bedroomm, which is damn zilian, but there was nothing to do, i swear.! so its okay :) but hey, its was fun what.
I played whales and cars with my baby cousins, drew and played somemore, and my aunty has facebook.! She asked me whether i knew what facebook was and then she winked happily and said she had one.
I'm officially outdated and uncool. i dont even know what facebook was reading blogs with people screaming that they have 'facebook.'
Hey but i know what facebook is nowwww :)


fujiwara is damn hot though he's gay and sissy, and refuses to cut his damn hair. ♥

Your eyes tell me different words. You say you're right, you rule the world. I listened enough, you ass, go shrivel up in your little corner like a small little rat.
You deserve it anyway. Don't tell me everything I have to do
-


I'm going to change my face in two years time and you must teach me how to eat.
I want to go coronation to buy my manga pronto so I can pass and while my time away at home while rotting. I'm planning to read three of jodi picoult's books.! im already finishing picture perfect. i have songs of the humpback whale, the tenth circle and vanishing acts. Yesterday i was talking with cheryl on msn about pride and prejudice, mr darcy and everything:)


I have nicholas sparks too and i know everyone's really interested in the really engrossing part of the boook. all the sexy parts eh:)
HAHAHAHA my father gets really excited at those parts.

egoistical and cynical

I'm really bored nowwwww.

I love my grandmother alot.! I really do, she's like my most hippy grandmother in the whole world. when she came back from hongkong she went on ranting about three tiered skirts and H&M and she says she gets reminded about jillian when she sees three tier skirts and when she sees makeup, she thinks of me.!
Haha when do i remind people of eyeshadow and blusher and lipgloss (:
And i'm sleeping over tomorrow at her housee! though i'm not really sure what to do there.

Today i woke up at one with mosquito bites all over my body.



light yagami is really hot.
in both the comic and the movie. takeshi obata really knows how to pick his characters:)
If not why would his choose tatsuya to act as a egoistical and cynical asshole who is really hot! I'm listening to the manga opening soundtrack for most probably the millionth time, haha. He is an asshole anyway, light yagami is a cynical ass who treats himself like a god. Cynical, but hot ass :)


Oh and shiren, your blog's really nice.!
Hope we can go out one day yeah:)

I have the most perverted, lecherous ah beng father worhx. He likes looking at my sister's fourteen year old friends in their skimpy bikinis and panties while looking at their camwhoring shots. He ooogles tooooo.
I'm so proud to have such a wonderful father.
-


y'know what? I'm going to tell you everything how i feel right now.

I feel so played, I feel so disgusting but I reach out to God, and He gives no reply.
I really want to go to Ruth's ignyte sesion again but I know if I do it for maybe four weeks or more my mother will chop my head off for church-hopping here and there.
ASPC ym is really cool and everything but I feel like a loner, like a miserable loner there. And to put things worse I feel more welcome at Ignyte though I know some fantastic friends and leaders I have at ASPC ym {:

I feel like I have to live up to everyone's expectations, though I know it's easy for me to live up to God's expectations. Damn do they expect me to be perfect? Assholes.
I sing to God in my soul, but my sisters dont and they muck me for singing,

I talk to noone, I'm a sucka at socializing. im just a weird antisocial ass you see mucking around doing nothing and probably engrossing herself in a book.
Like, do what the nerds do!


God i feel so angry now, i feel like chopping off anyone's head. Grah. kdfjgfdhtug8ruyuthghgyr8re847!

I'm in heart pyjamas with my face slapped with night cream all over. I am very unglammmm. My face is seething red and my nose is a volcano crater ready to explode in your damn face.

I was watching, the story of my life.

The song 'Watashi' keeps ringing in my head. actually its not really watashi its just that watashi is currently the only japanese word i know. I keep thinking of those people in white clothes singing while everyone in the church is having their lunch, and their voices are damn kewwl :D


And can you believe it today during sec one/p6 cell i screamed like a sissy cuz there was a houseflyy!):
Ok sorry g'bye i want to watch deathnote now.

I really want to go for the east timor mission trip.!
I wont imagine myself rubbing my dirty hands and doing dirty work I probably won't like to do. And maybe imagining how the toilets will look like and how the heck will i bathe. but i dont really care, i really want to go!):


There are people singing 'Watashi' in japanese in my church. like how cool is that lah(:

Tell me what's wrong with me, tell me everything.

Yo homies, i'm really very vemo and bored noww. My hershey is all melted now, anyway, the black chunks of cookies slowly melting in my hand, and with nothing to doo.


Ice skating next wednesday with ruth and maybe other people. maybe haircutting with strawberry bananana next week too(:
Today went neoprinting with priscilla and pamela yeo at cineleisure, and was really awkward at first but they started playing with my 'vemo' hair, cuz they say it totally suits my damn personality (my hair's messy, so my table is messy tooooo!) And their right too, cuz my report book says i have to be more organized. And it was like the first time in ages i went neoprinting at cine. so japanese-y, and so many zilian people and lianers.

And cinelesiure has the nicest thing manxxz, i wish i had moneyy):

HAHAHHAHHAHAHH. i feel so mean for saying all this.


After that was ym and wasnt really that bad though i really wanted to go to ignyte instead, cuz of all the booming action and really nice, more moving altar calls and the very short sermons. God i feel so mean for saying all this, gah/:

Today the pastor was staring around blurrily after the sermon and turned around and looked at my shirt, then he looked up again and said, "Praise the Lord?" And I bluurrily replied back yes toooo, because i didnt really understand what he was saying.
I went on a pad shopping spree juzzzt now, my bad bad habit.

Suddenly Alex had me cradled in his arms, the blanket falling away to reveal the red marks on my arm and the swelling near my ribs. He carried me into the bedroom and stretched me gently on the bed, so carefully that I did not even stir the comforter. He unbuttoned my blouse.

He brushed his lips over each spot, each ache, taking the pain and leaving behind a salve of tears. I held his head against my chest, thinking that this tenderness hurt even more.
"Shh," I said. "It's all right."

Last day of school and last day of honeymoons.

Oh man, today's last day of school. Shuckity shucks shucks, will miss you guys ♥


Today was really fun mass cleaning, we went to clean up 4/3 and it was really dirty and stinky at first but all thanks to the cleaning crew we really did a good job of making the classroom smell like happy fraganced detergent in the end, but that ass siong boon made us stay back to clean the ledges of the windows and fans and everything - couldn't go off till he said so, anw D:
Was prettyy much camwhoring in the classes later on, nobody really gave a heck about the teachers. And and, our dear priscilla is transferring to express in 2008 uh, smartass! :D
Top in class tuuuu!


I will see how i can upload the pictures so that i can spice up this damn boring blog.! Shafiqah is a damn zilian personn!



xxx.



If you don't like me can you just freaking scream it to my face! D:<

One more day and its freedom for at least two months :}

Today is one day before school closes, and we got back our report cards.
Everyone was crying, cursing the people who got transferred and comparing class positions and comments. We had to open our report books at the same time and today, amanda joy was really angry with pauline and her marks. But guess what, I should be even angrier. I am like what, bottom three of my class?! D:<


Yes, read it carefully. It does say bottom three):
I am the 37th position, out of a class of fourty peoplee. Can you believe it! Yes. And I have turned from a living walking Chinese A1 dictionary to a C5 barely passing Chinese dictionary.
It's like complete rubbish. I got my report card, held back my tears and comforted those who really needed the comforting more :) But at the bus stop near Serene I conferenced called my dad and mom and broke down and cried really bad.
The only freaking good thing about my report book is that i never ponned schooool.



Shafiqah really wants her Thai Express lunch/treat.
This Saturday is disgusting South Day division day and we have to go to kuo chuan secondary and do some peace talk and cheerleading.
And my guides uniform is getting tight which means I'm growing fat. Yucks tucks.




Tooooooodels.

Things left unspoken, things yet left unsaid

Write ten things you want to say to ten people, do not say who the people are.


1. I love you though you're hyper and everything, and we must go out more soon okay? You have only two more days left in our school, and I will miss you so much. Thank you for inviting me to your church, stay spirited in God forever. And he will stay in you forever :)

2. I'll be like boytalking with you like, forever. Thank you so much for sharing all the boytalk you have yeah :)

3. Y'know what? If you find me irritating and i'm a pain in your ass just open your mouth and tell me can!

4. Though I didn't really know you much last year, you're really nice and everything, until I realized how you were really like :}

5. We have a common interest yeah! Though you think i'm angry for like what, 90% of my time, I still love you aight. I cant believe I made fun of fujiwara last time cuz you said you liked him!): I'll give you my pictures of him soon!(:

6. Low socks purrrdner in crime, love you very much. Upper your socks abit! :}

7. Thank you so much for listening to my really boring rambles, and I believe you can study hard if you set your mind to it and don't cry and worry so much about the results ok! Cheeeeer up!(:

8. Although I don't really know you very much, you're very nice and cheery! :)

9. I forgive you okay. I still can remember everything but it's okay, let's shove all our history behind us and keep our friendship ignited. The letter you sent me made me rethink my actions. Thankyeww(:

10. I love you, though I never had the chance to say so.

Ignyte -

Hello jello.
I am very bored now. wanting to eat donuts, wanting to binge eat. I NEED MAGAZINES, badly. I love looking at this really 70s' vintage shades my mum gave me from retroo night. I love my mum, though she's kinda unreasonable sometimes.
♥


I really want to go back to ruth's ignyte session at ym because its way better than my church, no hurt intended. but ignyte really made me happy. I don't know why.

And all the gayness in the world

100th post baby!(:

Congratulations zemaine, natalie, rachel ming, amanda joy, netashya, dalreena, pauline, sophia and wanting for becoming our future prefects/nominees! I'll pull up my socks and become neater if anyone of you become prefects ok(:


Today was something like a movie marathon, but i didnt really watch instead, I slept. What else could you do in such an inviting dark air conditioned room then sleep? I think i slept through two movies though, heh. Today was basically all movies and movies and movie after movie. And everyone was sleeping and if the light was turned on by someone the entire group will start screaming in disgust, screaming at the person to turn off the freaking light, and it was really fun(:


After that was Spotlight at plaza singapura with ruth and camera whoring at different shops! Oh and there's a cotton on at plaza singapura and the things are really nice, and also forced ruth at m)phosis into white skinny jeans and a top i just randomly picked out, it was really fun(:
Spotlight had so many nice fabrics! Ruth wanted to make a cushion, so we went over to the fabrics section, where there were so many pretty bolts. There was one with ladybirds and one with deconstructed polkadots. i thought i could make/sew a dress for my dear mummy or something so i went over to look at the really classy black silk ones and the pink ones and tried to find for strings so that i could make a red corset belt for it(:

We walked around, shopped, cam whored and tried on different things, and we absolutely loved cotton on. i really want to buy things. A new jersey, shorts, a shirtdress - but my father says i have to prioritize what i want, since i already bought converse shoes, and i think i should be happy with that-. We went to dorothy perkins, DMK, shoe shops and everything. Went to Subway and Missy Donut for snacks. The doughnuts at Missy Donut sucks - they gave me a donut with melted glazed chocolate all over my paper bag.

Topshop, Mango, Forever21 and Cotton On are having such fantastic mid-year sales now. It's prom fever.!

I also wanted a mocha from Starbucks with extra whipped cream very badly toooo. And ribs and steak from Cafe Cartel. And sushi and dim sum):




It's two more days to that day and I will miss you, you fatty.
Miss you so much till I can't feel any hyper anymore, running all over the mrt station and throwing plastic bags at my face right from the train door when it is closing.

Two more dayyys.

I am like really bored, yo

Nicole the Fantastic Pruner

Today was bougainvillea cip.!really fun though there were alot of mosquitoes. in charge of the pruning. can you believe it? nicole the pruner.

do you need to prune your bushes? free pruning(:

today we went over to calanthea's house for rollerblading and cycling!& i had to keep ruining their fun cuz i totally forgot how to rollerblade and kept falling on my ass and calanthea, zemaine, rachel and natalie fussed over my ass and making sure i didnt fall(:
After that rachel's mum gave me and natalie a lift.! we were cam whoring in the park later while waiting. and when i got home, i realized i left my freaking phone near the roof of my house. heck i didnt even knw how it got there, i climbed up my gate to get it. Man.


Today there was big fuss over these sweets called 'I love Singapore' or something like that, some sweets nicole lai gave out to the class. shafiqah gave me this bag of pretty mentos sweets and milk sweets and planned to keep it but suddenly everyone was 'crying' from the Singapore sweets. Then i gave them chocolates and mentos sweets from the little bag(:



I'm planning to go to the gym thrice a week during the holidays. I need to workout, i have really bad flabbies popping up at the wrong places.and my tummy!
aw shucks.
Spotlight tomorrow with ruth! and Spotlight with natalie and maybe rachel ming one day!(:
Oh yeah, and for the first time today, I havent watched deathnote.



Prefect nomineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees today uh! (:

Troy likes all things pretty.

hello i am very bored now.
Today will be a super wordy post,


got back our papers today, i did very bad for literature and it was the first time i ever cried over english, and my poetry. I cant believe my head inflated to epic proportions in primary schoool, i cant believe i made fun of so many people for their english, thinking i was the freaking best in the whole world in my english, like some Master in my english that i knew every single vocabulary and every single word, and aced all my english exams with ease, and stuck out my tongue to so many friends whom i actually could have made the dearest friends with.

And today i cried.!
I guess i got a big right slap back in my face by God for my complacency.. I got lots of comfort from pamela yeo and shafiqah, thanks you guys(:
I can feel my cheeks and face burning with fury and shame as I look away, my face tinging with the fury and anger, mixed with bucketloads of happiness. If i didnt fail my literature i would probably be the same disgusting person I am.



It's raining and i'm drinking yakult. I like

I really want to get a tan, i want to get a bikini line, i want to grow darker but my body sucks to be even shown in broad daylight.

Today is my parents anniversary! So, what you two gna do tonight? (:

I'm superman, I save your day

I am like, the boredst person. heck i cant find a single thing to do.

okay okay today was fun at church. waked up, bathed and went to church super early because jillian went for her eastern women run, and i had a really nice time at church, and we had this english guy come to talk, ahahhha(:
went to check up on all the tennis lessons today and then lunched at wild rocket at this really pretty secluded place in mount.emily. it's a hotel, and its really clean. the seafood pasta and the prawns were super guuuuud!(: and they sell earrings and little bandanas and keychains and all sorts of quirky things.


Today was the primary six/secondary one cell thing. it was really cooool, cuz we're helping the primary sixes from cm to ease their transferral to ym! aunty susan was really happy today or something - her face was all flushed red and was so excited that she kept on talking and talking(:
Shopppppped at marina for quite abit, and my mum bought me a pair of arches to put inside my converse shoes and now my shoes weigh a ton, duper super heavy. It feels like you're lugging a weight around with you!



I want to go Spotlight and buy a pair of pumps and some dried flowers and buttons! I have so many ideas to make presents for people!(:




How do you hear God's voice, and how do you not know that you are believing your own impulse feelings? How do you know that it's God, and not your own fantasies and imagination?
Does God answer my prayers?
Does God love me, and does God watch over me, and look after my every step and every move?

Yes he does, yes he does.

Dear child, don't forget that I have your entire life mapped out in My hands.Your future will be safe with me, lean not on your own understanding for only I can make your path straight.
Thank you God.


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for the first time today, i cried.! and ruth's church is probably one of the coolest churches around man. compared to my ym at my own church, this church was one of the most humongous churches around, and it was kind of freaky at first, but the church was really God-filled(:
And today, i thought i could face anything. turned out i couldn't, because i was really scared i went home crying and shaking/:


my sister's going for a run and heck, she complains about her shirt. she thinks she's gna be popular cuz she's going on tv for some kdjfsdjfifihtut advertisment thing that she's going to be in, and wants to decide what top she's gna wear to run.

It's time to care more for other needs

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I'm really bored now, and i dont really want to watch death note because now i can literally memorize every single line.

Hello, today was a horrible ollo day.
got back my results. expected my math to be much better.! but when i called my mum she was kind of happy over the phone, so yeah. i wanted to cry over my math paper but couldnt force any tears to drip out, and sitting down there happily 'people watching' the rest of the secondary one level scream, shout their asses off with joy. y'know, praise the lord. im never going to tell my two sisters about my results because its either Jillian that goes smirking her face in front of me or Ashley that thinks she's the best, she even dreams of going on CNN and getting 300 for her psle and recieving a super big prize/trophy/medal, according to her >:(
Even, my grandfather looks down on me for choosing normal acad over express/special, but i'll shove my shortcomings in his face and tell him that im happy with being in normal academic and that im having way more fun(:


I'm probably going for ruth's youth tomorrow, so that's something to be happyxxz about.





Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good,

Oh boy, fujiwara really needs a haircut right now. he looks bad, he looks like a gay!): Other than that, i still love him(: I bought the cd with the special editions, and with he's so skinny you can barely see any freaking muscles on him, theré is practically no biceps or triceps on him.


HAHAHHAHHAHAH(:

eoys resultss coming out tomorrow man.

today was really fun for post exam activities. soccer! tulasi was really good, she scored two goals for us and its always at the ending, where the game is finished. way to go tulasi, she even wore soccer boots! and joy too. and because tulasi didnt lace her boots properly, her shoe flew up two times(:


Tomorrow's our eoys results.!
I know my God has a special plan for me, i really trust he will work everything out and if i retain because he wants me to, by all means.

I can't believe i'm thinking such disgusting things
I really want to clean my brain
who said jealousy was not easy?


(edit/)


I really need alot alot of talking, today my mind was disgusting. And who said jealousy, and envying one another, is just another form of malice and wrath? I tried enough, what the hell is going on.
I really want to take a freaking scrub and scrub my brain.

Today was my second timee eating KFC since yesterday, so cool lah.!



Today was digital disc jockey, i didnt really do anything (if blogging counts for you) and when our test came, all that came out from my speakers were ghost whirring sounds, and the guy was kinda angry, seeing that i wasted three hours of his precious time and only came up with ghost sounds(:
For the first time today i realized how close __________ is to God, and her religion. I mean, man! I never knew it before, so we both sat down at the thomson christian bookstore and started talking about people getting filled with the Holy Spirit and stuff - like people falling backwards and not getting hurt, and speaking in tongues. (:
Y'know the feeling when you start doubting God/: i switch off during sermons, y'know and start reading the bible from Genesis to Matthew to pass my time, which is kind of stupid.


Okay toodles.!

I am the cookie monster!
I eat double chocolate chips, I eat banana cookies,
I eat strawberry cookies, I EAT EVERYTHING!
Yum yum yum.



Some random thing i have decided to do since there's not a single thing that i can do at home.
Today was thomson again, treated ruth and rachel to kentucky, and i met my grandfather there, which is not the exact thing to make me happy. Because i dont really like him, and i dont think he likes me too. My god he has a 1001 wives begging at his feet, and he cant even stay freaking faithful to one.

Omg i cant believe i have been sleeping my ass off at home for two whole days with nothing to do and watch death note for the thousandth time. Andd it sucks, because my father forbids ponning school):
eoy results are coming out this friday!

I'm on heliummmmmm

I feel like an antisocialist,

if you count getting yourself engrossed in books nerdy. I'm reading Jodi Picoult's Picture Perfect, its really good but I don't really understand it. I'm getting the deathnotee2 cd today - very soon i will have an entire collection. bwahah. then i will officialy become a nerd.

Yup, I'm proud to be a nerd.

I dont know how to communicate and make friends with people, i dont know how to make people happy. I'll just try to please everyone :}

My sister bought skinny jeans, which is soooo unfair, but now she finds it tight, which makes me want to laugh. Who told her to go and buy a pair of skinnies which costs over sixty and now she finds it too tight. Hahahhah so much for trying to fit in with the trends. Suckaaa(:

I want a pair of jeans from pull and bear. y'know what i cant even fit into my first pair of jeans already, disgusting. im fat:( My sister keeps laughing at me for being much more chubbier than my two sisters - and i satisfyingly stayed at 43kg. Who's the sucka now man.

I never demanded for perfection,

Omg i really hate wearing pullovers, especially in disgusting singapore when the sun smiles on you for almost every hour. My pullover can only protect my phone, and thats it):
Today while waiting for ruth to arrive at amk hub, i was stared at by so many people and lians, probably because my brand was so big. And primary sixes and fours have boyfriends.! some of them were freaking making out infront of me.

I feel so tired, and wet from the rain.

Tooooodles.

My sister thinks matsuyama looks like a greek god, and calls fujiwara a praying mantis. Man, like when did fujiwara even look like a praying mantis-es. Now who is the white praying mantis now huh huh(:

I had a very big catfight with my mum
Correction,it was humongouss

Stop mooching around, you ass

Eoys are like, finally over. I lost fourteen freaking marks just because i forgot to write qin shihuang's popularity and deng xiaoping's achievements. I hate you now, xiaoping >:( almost every paper was hard. As long as I dont retain already then can. I'm happy.


Today was shopping at junction eight with calanthea, zemaine and rachel. We ate macs then went looking around. Couldn't buy my face masks, though:) Bought a shirt from a pushcart and a pair of maroon ankle socks from mini toons, and then mucked around.


I don't wanna upset my parents, they're counting on me

I just watched the one last surviving part of battle royale.
that tatsuya is really lucky. four girls can fight and shoot themselves and die just for him. he must be hot man. One girl poisons his food, the other gets angry and then all of them shoot each other. then fujiwara comes down naked and stares at the blood.



like, wow

I think this is like one of his super unglamourous moments. Like scuse' me, look at his laugh, it looks really gay. Reminds me of the time where he laughed like a mad ass(:

I'm seriously a butt full of ugly lies. Its disgusting, just makes me want to bend over the toilets and start puking all my sinful ways out. it's absoulutely disgusting.

Someone save me,

My sister just went off partying to Wonderland.

Today on the bus i was as silent as a bee(not much) until amanda started talking about fujiwara tatsuya! which, apparently set me off like a cannon, and she finds him average looking! Oh my oh my. I'm hyperventilating. He is damn hot, lah. Ooooh, and my eyeballs grow big manxxxz.

Oh and guess what? Ling Ling sabotaged my lovely hair with one bunch of white, ugly coated blanko hair. I dont know, im growing old! Oh and i have red, pink, blue, silver, green and all sorts of different colours in my hair, you just have to look properly. I already found green, anyway

You make me angry la, you

Stop trying to ensure the world would be so perfect. Stop moulding the world according to what you expect of everyone. Stop trying to be a duplicate of everyone, for the past six months? Wake up, homie. Not everything will be going your way, Missus.




oh no no no.
my lip has inflated to gigantic proportions. I peeled my lip, and bit it, and clenched my teeth inbetween the flesh crying out for mercy, so now my lip looks lopsided and ugly. so much for beauty, man. i look like a goldfish. and the ions thing really works, im fully awake now.Ehwwww, i look like a protruding goldfish.


Shopping with ruth, and thomson plaza eating spree after eoys! and eoys will be overr sooooon, so i will not be using this stupid word anymore, eoys.

Halleujah, Halleujah, Halleujah, and the angels sing

Watch out, im gna be emo.

Whose side are you on?

today was the first day i ever dared to skip guitar, because I never had the freaking guts to not turn up for guitar practices sooo, helleujah, haha :)

As said,im using my mugging time to blog! My mum gave me some weird negative ions thing to wake me up and make me focus, which is good because it was the first time I didnt fall asleep while mugging, or dragging my feet over to the computer to watch deathnote, kinda wakes me up watching people get heart attacks. And youtubing :} Omg and yes, tatsuya. oooooh


I'm actually barred from using the laptop during my eoys period.



While flipping through the old photographs while rummaging through my mother's old things (man,she was damn skinny when she was in secondary one) i saw my sisters photos, and regardless to say, my angmor-ish sister ashley is super cuteee, compared to now. I feel like pinching her cheeks, so pinchyish! And touching her braids. She was so cute, compared to now :D


C'est la vie

Omg i was such an ahlian in primary six when i helped esther set up her blog.Ehw.



oh pls..its not some offence or anth im not hacking okayy! its like im helping estyy do up her blog cuz' im an angel dropped down from heaven!!anww...umm esty wats bored pple of the world unite coz its REALLY weird. MUCH.uhhumm...im damnn boreddBORED PPLE OF THE WORLD UNITE!haha im SOO lame; lolxTTFN________________nicoleeeeeeeeee


I cant believe this was what i wrote in primary six. Can you believe it can you believe it! Ehhhwww.

You're my heart's jealousy

I've decided to blog in between my study breaks, because I don't want to sink into the wonderful depths of my textbook for every single minute. so im blogging here and you should be thankfullll(:


I'm joining sicc tennis, which clearly screams my lack of commitment out loud :O and for starters, i quit my guitar lessons when im already up to the fourth stage. and im not even going for guitar tomorrow so Wilson's gna bonk me on my head, screaming and yelling at me when I go there to pick my sisters up with my mother.


I feel kinda emo now, considering the fact that I have to get back to history in five minutes cuz my break's gna be up soon. I slash my wrists with different colours.

tgif

please, i may have all that i really want. i look like i own the whole world, but actually i don't, cuz my world can come crashing down any minute. Dear God, please help me on this.




i bet my sister's partying her life away now,since her eoys are over): And, she even went out to buy skinny jeans, which makes me feel even worse, cuz all my sisters are getting skinny jeans wayyy before me! And she's going for some fancy jacuzzi party at a hotel with her friends.
I still have eoys until next thursday and it makes me freaking angry just thinking of it. i would like to chop off heads nowww. im supposed to be mugging yet im glued to the computer watching deathnote 2. i bought the cd too y'know, so i can easily access fujiwara's face. His side profilee is damnnn guuuuud man(: Haha but he looks kinda gayy when he's crying because he looks like he's humping the woman.



today we had basketball tests, and i did rather stupid and bad. cuz i cant dribble and do a throw in, and i cant do a chest pass? but lianne did pretty well, and she didnt deserve the marks i got because she partnered with me.





I'm still mugging, and using my study break to blog, and my sister's still partyingg.




And bring me back to the heart of worship, cuz You're everything I ever needed

Oh my god my bolster smells really good now. No idea why

Burma, I'll be praying

Omg.
Would the army in Burma stop killing the monks? I mean, you're going against your own religion, and you're killing thousands of monks. I just went teary eyed just now, heehee. I pray for you, Burma :)





Someone from the office went out to there, and came running back when there were shots being fired. He said they were being shot up into the air, and into the crowd too. That was around 2:50pm.




He didn't see anyone being hit, though a girl told him that her friend was hit. I heard the gun shots too, but it sounded alot like clapping. So I went out to look. People were running back, and some were just staying in the place, and some were walking back towards Sule Pagoda. I was reading the news on a blogger's Cbox, and it said that at least 5 monks were dead at Shwedagon Pagoda. My sis had already called home and told my brother not to go to work. I called home too, and also to my father. He told me to stay at work and not to go out.At 3:03 pm, I saw a large group of people coming up from Bo Gyoke Road, from Pan Soe Dan side, and joining the group near Sule Pagoda.At 3:10 pm, my boss told us all to go home. He said he'll give some of us a lift, so I went home with him. When we got to U Htaung Bo Circle, the road to Shwegondine was blocked, so we went around, took a shortcut and emerged out from the road near Lumbini Restaurant (formerly an ILBC school). I was taken to home first.

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I was watching the news when it came on at 8:00pm. The first news that came was to report if anyone was forced to donate money and food to the protesters. Then, what came next was other unimportant news like planting jatroba curcus, and visiting factories and stuff. On at the end of the news, it was announced that during the clash on Sule Pagoda Road, 1 unidentified person was killed and 3 were injured because of the shooting, and that some police officers were injured.



My friend said I was brave blogging about this when I am confused about where I stand. I was not being brave. I am a coward hiding in the office. At first, I started removing my photo in my profile, and was going to hide the posts that provide personal details of me. Then I decided not to because I am not doing anything wrong.In the midst of all these chaos, I am very afraid. I am afraid for myself, I am afraid for my family, and I am afraid for the country.

http://www.xanga.com/dawn_1o9/618271640/updates-from-myanmar.html#comment



God, please be with Burma. They need Your unfailing mercy now, they need Your special touch. Be with them.
Amen ♥





eoys sucKKKK.

Yeah, and I dont really give a freaking damn on what you think.

through those darkened days

You swiped me and surprised me with a terrible shock, I'm not gonna think of you the same way anymore, I'm not going to put you down anymore. I'm not going to upset you no longer. Get well soon, and I love you very much. Please don't leave me crying by my side. The mix of emotions I feel right now, my heart is in my mouth. ♥


I hate this.
I'm so happy riding on 855 with amanda yap and my mother strikes me with a big fat bomb. like wth, it makes me so pissed thinking of it. And to make things worse, I keep thinking of what's gna happen, and that makes me even more angrier.






Just imagine if someone you love so much dies and just leaves you hanging by the thread. like what, i didnt even get so say goodbye to my grandfather and he just left me here with my other grandfather who only cares whether i geta frigging phD or doctor's license. I bet he thinks I'm also putting down the whole family and slamming them on their faces by chooosing normal academic over express.And like, so what if im a freaking late developer?As much as i really want to say, i hate my granddad and I dont know whether God is listening.

I need someone to talk to nowwww.

I feel like my eyes have been dripping with tears for the last two hours while having tuition

It's exams, yet I'm really angry.

>:(