Wheeeeeeeee.
Im happy and high now. Haha, yay. I really cant wait to spend time with my mum:)

Maybe its just an illusion? I think it is.

The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
Urh, random people. Random random people.

When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Haha yeah. Like duhhhhhhh:)

In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
Listener.

Do you take compliments well?
Haha, no one has complimented me so far yet.

Do you play Sudoku?
I aint that cheeem. I dont even get how to play Sudoku no matter how many times you attempt to explain it to me:)

If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
Thats exactly why I joined guides for

Do you like to ride horses?
YupPpZz

Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Haha church camp

What was your favourite game as a kid?
Sisscors paper stone

If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married what would you do?
Tell that sexy person to get lost cuz it aint sexy to come after complete idiots like me and stay faithful to his wife.

Could you date someone with unequal religious beliefs as you?
NO. Never.

Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Haha i enjoy the pursued part but i hate pursuing, thank you:)

Are you ticklish?
No, i just stone and think of daisies and poppy flowers

Do any songs make you cry?
Yeah. The Fray 'How to save a life' I love that song alot.

Do y'know how to shoot a gun?
I wishhhhhh

If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
My family picture, handphone and bolster

Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Present.

Favourite children's book?
'Mrs Mole's Bedtime Stories'

How tall are you?
How tall am I? Oh yeahh, verrrrrry tall):

Where is your dream house located?
The mansion God has alr prepared for me:) haha with gold chocolate bars and flying cherubs!

What name brand is your computer?
Compaq

Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
Yes! Neoprinting is the love yo.

What flavour is your favourite lollipop?
Coca cola.

Where was the furthest place you travelled today?
My bedroom:)

Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Sleep.

Do you look like your mum or dad?
I look like my mummmy. My bigger sister looks like my dad and my rents say my smaller sister was a mixture of a sperm and a potpot. HAHA

How long does it take for you to shower?
10 minutes if i'm feeling really zilian.

Can you do splits?
NooooOOOoooooOOOOO):

What movie do you want to see right now?
BRATZ! haha

Would you like to make a shoutout?
HAHA YES. HELLOOOOOO WORLD!:)

What song would you like to dedicate?
'Shut up and drive' by Rihanna to my daddy cuz he cant stop emphasizing how hot he is when he's behind that wheel :)

Do you own a camera phone?
Haha yes. for camwhoring purposes:)

Who would you like to dedicate that song to?
My lovely daddy:)

Candles or incense?
Candles.!

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
11 hours. I oversleep way too much.

Do you like Carebears?
I love them alot.! Especially the junkfood tees with the really cute bears printed all over them. I want a carebears shirt!:)

What do you buy at the movies?
Popcorn and nachos!

Do you know how to play poker?
Even if i knew how to play poker I'm never allowed to play poker.

Do you wear your seatbelt?
No, dont really give a damn about that seatbelt anw :)

What do you wear to sleep?
Pyjamas and sometimes shorts and a shirt. I want pretty PJs!:)

Are you in love?
Not exactly love. but sHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhh:)

Do you like funny or serious people better?
Funny. I like people who crack stupid jokes!:)

Ever been to LA?
Haha i wish man:(

Did you eat a cookie today?
No! I need famous amos!:)

Do you use cuss words in other languages?
Sadly, yeah): In malay. Who told shafiqah to go learn chinese vulgarites and shoot them at me huh huh huh:) So i learn malay vulgarites from my malay friends and do the same to her :)

Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
Pay pay pay

Do you hate chocolates?
No no no, i detest them so badly if they didnt look like mini devils with forks and horns! Grah they're temptations!):

Are you a gullible person?
Yeah, thats what my sister says

Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
No

If you could have any job(assuming you have the skills) what job would you take?
Lawyer, i wanna debate debate debate.

Are you easy to get along with?
Haha yeah as long as you dont piss me off.

What is your favourite time of the day?
When my stomach feels empty, and when its raining. When i feel God:)



Credits to esther!/

You shine brighter than the whole milky way-

i feel so cheap and poor and low class in clarke quay. HAHHHHAH. even crabs and hooters makes me feel poor.
today we went to hooters for dinner after rotting on chairs and camwhoring, and it was really fun tho. the first time i went to clarke quay in the night and its really beautiful and dreamy! But the hooters waitresses were wearing orange FBTs pulled up till like infinitely like hot shorts. one of them were trying to seduce this american guy, showing their butt cracks and everything. He didnt even seem the least interested but the other guys were. haha:) it was fun watching though. And the big funky bump sign.

Haha today i was talking politics!
I really miss God, I really do. Talked to himm for a really really long time today, and i prayed to invite someone to youth camp. then i waited a few secs and sms-ed gillian. Then i prayed agaain (hahah to be sure to be sure!) and she really replied yes.! :) So i was really hyper at hooters and i was really happy with everything and the grace God has given. YAY!:)
Friday will be angmor days with my mummmm. Haha love our angmor days. Angmor days rule!:)

Today was really nice, though i skipped the ym special day. grr. i didnt want to skip it initially but my bigger sister was all druggy and drowsy and didnt want to go for ym, and my mum had a bbq going on later so i skipped ym to help her. I really should have gone):
Gillian, my mum, my maid, Jillian and my sister Ashley all love my THEFACESHOP nail strengthenng thang! HAHHAHA i rock in my choices dont i? i painted my chinese teacher's nails rad! she luvxxxs it mun. really does:) forgot to give ruth her nail varnish thing. eeeeh. i owe many many people debts. GRAH. i owe rachel ming her ben and jerrys money and guides money, neoprints money. i really plan to clear them.


My IOU.

I owe rachel ming six bucks for new york super fudge chunk and for neoprint money. i will pay them when school starts! I promisseeee.


Ah rachel ming you better be reading this!:) lol.

Today was northpoint with ruth goh!
It was really fun though I havent been to northpoint for thirteen years and i printed out photos which were flipping cheap compared to thomson!:) and ruth got her picnic ham, and we also bought real cute teeny minitoon water bottles! Haha i have green. we walked around practically the whole of northpoint. i really want to go back to northpoint. i want to buy Keds! haha the really nice canvas flats. i want to buy a shirtdress and converse sneakers and cartunistas num slippers and skinny jeans! :)

My sister never allows me to touch her teen vogue cuz i always rip the covers apart! Haha and her Dolly.

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I'm a techno-phobe, haha!
Today was really deeesgusting. when i was sleeping my mum woke me up with her screaming and demanded me to clean up my tables. My cupboard, my clothing cupboard. I got real pissed off and just tucked my head under my blanket. but i wanted to make my mum happy so i cleaned up my table before i went off for northpoint.



Oooooh i see some drama.

My temper has definitely cooled downnn now:)
I've been trying to control my tempers since this morning. It's quite okay and definitely getting the hang of it, and i'm happpppy!(: i could have flared up at my sister today but i didnt. but she flared up at me. HAH. turn the tables around yo :) God definitely helped me with it and had a big part to play in my change. I just love that :)

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Please support!:)
Haha i really want to make a donation but i dunno how to, so i'm still trying! Since tuberculosis is there i don't really mind helping. Hey KFC is there toooo! Haha if kentucky chicken wings can help underprivileged people enjoy life and not worry bout hunger, I'm in! Finger lickin good!:)
Today went for my dental checkup and sadly aunty sharon wasnt in so we had this new guy who loved to ask me all sorts of puberty questions. like, throughout the whole checkup. So if he's checking your teeth he'll go ""So hello, Nicole, how long have you been menustrating? Have you hit puberty?" then seconds later he'll go "How does puberty feel like for you?"
We had to wait for my dad while he did his puberty questions thang. then my dad came and i have to do dentaal surgery, my whole face gna change! HAHHH:) then you have to teach me how to eat!:D


Haha ok. goodbye. will blog if i have the time. Tooooodels :)

/Lol randoom quiz i just took from ruth so credits to her :)

A random girl asks you your name
Haha say hi? :)

The last thing you put in your mouth
Toothpaste cuz toothpaste is my bestie

What was the last message on your phone
k i'll wear a bikini tmr. SEXY RITE? :D nite...

The last song you listened to
My mummy's sappy/love korean drama songs. I love singing them, sarang-haeyo! :)

Who do you trust in your life?
All my friends. I don't really tell them the really sensitive things though. But i trust everyone! :)

Would you move to the USA to be with someone you love?
Haha depends.

Talked on the phone in the shower?
Yeah. To carrie, in primary six. Loudspeaker toooo so they can hear shower sounds. I actually talk to people when i pee too, if you're the unfortunate little weenie. My little secret, shhhhh.

Would you stop talking to your friends because of your girlfriend/boyfriend?
No way. Never in a flipping million years.

Fill in the blank: I love ________.
God and everything He gave me.

Who will you wanna marry?
A man that most probably appreciates me for who I am.

Who will you wanna call after waking up from your coma?
Family cuz my family is da bomb:) then call my friends and say hello and make them little presents.

How many kids do you wanna have
Haha 10! Or maybe 11, its enough to make up a football team yo! :)

What will you call your kids?
Peeping Tom, Cheerful Dick and Harry Potter. and if more then three than i'll search the Bible for names :)

Your surname?
Chiaaaaaaaaaa

Favourite toy
I still love the really ugly but cute chinatown pig that i bought with carrie lim:) I love it to bits. Has meanning to it.

Right or left handed?
Hahhhha, righttt! :)

Been to Paris
I WANT.

Last person you kissed?
My bolster and my mum. My bolster aint qualifying as a person aint it :)

Do you love anyone now?
Yes. Family, friends, Jessie and God

What are you doing?
Fighting the King Koopa? :)



Today was really bad/horrible/fun and other than praising God, the shopping and family bonding time, the rest of it was awful. Though i'm thai expressing tmr!
Started out real horrible, i got scolding from my dad because i answered back really rudely cuz i was really pissed i was forced to wake up so early and everything): So sorry, God):

Then later i had to make the hardest choice of my life - who to obey? like wth, who am i supposed to obey? I have two people to please - who do you expect me to please huh? I was really irritated, I couldnt stand it so i just burst out crying like a baby and called Ruth, cried the bugger and shizz out of myself. i looked like a pontianak with red eyes and blotchy shriveled nose crying. haha.
my sisters really cheered me up though. we went nydc and had pizza and everything and literally went crazy - i even have a cheena photo of my mum and dad kissing in nydc doing those smooch poses thats the so very in thing now :) went to wheelock and went to ipod shop - really want an iPod touch! and a iMac so i can do happy camwhoring. we camwhored with the comp and the people were rather pissed off. but do weee looook like we care? Nuh uh :) My dad's a happy hip camwhorer yo! My mum went shopping for christmas cards.
Tis the season to be jolly. I'm christmass plannnnnnner!




WANNNNNNNA TURKEY ? :]

/my smaller sister has beautiful eyes of an angel and the meanness of a tiger fury inside her. criticizes people very very easily.
Jillian got this really pretty tartan dress from my cousin, and she came in bashing into our room, her voice happy happy happy in her tartan dress.


Jillian: Tadah! *smiles one big cheesy smile*

Ashley: Omg do i look like i really care? *continues playing gameboy and smirks*


If you scoldd that angel she gives you the dao look, and then does her really popular donald duck mouth. My dad got really tempted to staple her mouth. Hah, cuz my dad rules like that (:
Oh she just insulted my gameboy. Moist with fungi? No way.

His lips pressed coldly against her neck.
Softly she breathed, her heart skipped a beat. Then he withdrew his lips and looked at her beautiful face gently.

(edit/)


today was really fun. met up with my senior, jinger, though the last time she talked to me was six months ago for a school survey! But she was really nice and all - so met up with her at somerset mrt and went off to her church, Hope Church. Something like ruth's ignyte, flashlights and bright lights and really enthusiastic cheers and all. Hyped up, and all ready to give God his rightful glory on his throne :)
Yup. today started off really bad. I was in a flipping rush today - had tuition in the morning then lunch at my grandmother's house. And then i had to change to go for jinger's ym. My mother scolded me for not bringing a bag and demanded me to change to jeans. So i changed and had to stashed my jeans in an envelope. Haha how unglammmmm. the mrt guy thought i was carrying about a bomb!


Haha i have a couple of things to really complete this week!
And I really have to rush my glass noodle date with shafiqah. she really wants her glass noodles bad. like shizzzz, she's been bugging me for her glass noodles for a few days alr. if i put off our date she's gna scream her head off and ignore me for six whole years ):
I have ruth's present to complete too. And small little letters to give out to people and ym camp! gah no one wants to come! still thinking of people. hee. hahahahhah maybe i'm lonely and a really lonesome loner! AMANDA WEE I AM COUNTING ON YOU. lol.

• Go running.
• Do up ruth's present ( eeh i still cant get the fabric right y'know!)
• Do up esther wong aka strawberry bananaa's present (ditto for the stupid fabric who refuses to listen)
• Grow closer to my one God Almighty. I need it badly.
• LOSE WEIGHT.
• Christmas shopping with many people like ruth or rachel or anyoneeee!:)
• Finish my homework by this week. (HHAHAH fat dreams.)
• Invite at least one person for ym camp!

Oh yeah. can i ask you what i ever did to you?

i have my name in kakatana on amanda whee's blog, yo :)
back from thanksgiving, and the sermon was really boring tho. went to raffles after that with claudia, rachel ming, cassandra, pamela and amanda wee! HAH she came! dont pon eh dont pon! :) Haha went burger king, and after claudia left, cassandra got very high on milo. told me to scold her if she went hyper. didnt scold her, and in the end rachel, me, cassandra and pamela threw ice on each other in school uniform in burger king in a public place, hawhaw :D
the primary sixes from smps went outside with their friends and started crying and hugging each other, their faces all blotchy and red. psle results coming out next weeeek!

Haaha amanda wee is a zilian womannnnn cuz when i took out my strawberry shortcake mirror to show her she took it and neatened her hair! :) Gah pamela yeo thank you for the neoprints and the really sweet message. love you! :

Today was really bad and i hate today alot.

haha actually torture camp was better than i expected. anw, i have withdrawal.fits/:
i miss the powder in my legs, the sound of jessie barking, my mum's constant nagging, my dad's funny little boastful quotes. i missed my sisters so much too that i almost cried but when i got in the car with ruth all i got from my smaller sister was, 'Omg i am so happy to have you home. Finally.' And of course, its sarcasticc. And all i got from jillian was scolding throughout my whole car journey, back home at dinner.


Where's the loove?:(


The only really welcoming thing was that my mum said hello, my dad said hello and whipped up the bestest food ever. fried wings, oxtails and white rice and omelettes:)

I know, my commitments towards diets are absolute laopok -.-

Today was really funnnn, we had games and Splat is really fun! i wanna play Splat againnnn. eeeeh. i love that creepy face, y'know the evil ones with the torchlight (think villians!) :D
Yes, my pretty mosquito patches.
I planned to actually torture myself with jogging and running and cardio when i came back from camp but apparently i gorged myself instead -.-
Partnered shalakah for the nature walk. my thighs really ache, felt like tumbling down the stupid hill. Who knew the smallest hill in Singapore could kill you. haha and i put my insect repellent and water with cassandra lowww so i couldnt get my water bottle so Kirin shared her water with me. Princesses! i was practically dehydrateddd.
Thanks cass for offering to hold my things though! :D


I love drills all of a suddennn, though. eeh. tomorrow's thanksgiving, and i feel so pain and tired.


Ruth, thank you so much. The bestest wustest thing any friend did for me, and i really appreciate it. Water bomb! :)

Ahh yes i'm prepared, breathing easy now. yes yes yes. Jaya asked for two tins of sausages but i only have tunaaa): Off to guides camp, eek):

Guides torture camp.

Today was girly talk with my dad. Haha funnnnn!


'Dad, I feel fat! there's unwanted sludge all over my body.'

'Is that what girls talk about today? Nowadays? Is it the hip thing or smth?

'Maybe, yeah. I think so.'

'Have you seen worse ones, darling?' lifts up his shirt. 'Wanna see mine? If yours is sludge then what is mine? I don't have a six pack but i have one. It's the hippest thing ever.'

'Wow dad, that's really hot.'

Blushes. 'Haha yeah i know! then why would i show you!' -.-

My father is the best dad in my world, my entire world. he's late, he's funny and he thinks just because he's from acs he's hot. Everytime we pass acs, he goes 'Omg i'm so proud. acs guys very hot one y'know! haha i from acs you know! Which means i'm hot! HAHA!'

And then if we remind him he changed secondary school, he will go, 'So I'm half hot?' (:


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Today went amk hub to meet up with ruthhh.
I wanna pierce my ears.! cuz im so flipping lazy to even wear a earstick and even bother to keep my earhole open, my mother says she might have to reconsider. I bought stuff from watts in and rachel ming went to buy earrings with alphabets 'R' and 'M'
I'll buy her a 'J!' :D

Bought roller coaster, earrings and bubble tea. im obsessed with bubble tea. I love bubble tea. I like the pretty little harmless little pearls which can actually give me cancer. AND, the milk. sweettalk's really good! :D
Went around finding for rachel ming a cropped knit jacket which she really wanted and had to buy - but in the end we couldnt find anything cuz amk hub has barely anything. She's wearing a black shift dress and a polka dotted retro dress! IMAGINE how hot she'll look lah. and what _________ will think of her man! :)

Oh and my secondary four senior just invited me to her church.! :) the one who surveyed me six months ago, and i totally forgot how she looks like): at orchard cuppage point, hope church. I hope i can go, i really do.


Get well soon, pamela yeo! I wanna go out with you! haha do drills do drills!:) pomelo!

Guides torture camp is in one day time and i'm NOT prepared. i want to pon it! ARGH. i dont wanna go hiking!

GOD, thank you so much. you give me the bestest friend you could ever give, and she was the one who renewed my faith and trust and spirit in You.


my other friend. thanks for coming to IGNYTE for 2 times. even though i actually pangsehed you to sit with the nice CH (: people you weren't angry with me. i really pray that you will draw nearer to God. it touches me to see you cry,no i ain't sadist. thanks for being my buddy(: my shopping/cam whorring/crapping. even though you aren't in express and there are differences between us,this friendship still rocks.


Thank you, ruth. yes you did do what you wanted, your praying workeddd. and there are absolutely no differences whether you're in express or whatever, cuz you rock no doubt about it :)
Sorry for the copying and pasting! and hahah you shoe-a-holic! I had the bestest talk with you tonight - really. just wanted to say i'll love you forever. awwh :)



HAHAHAHH amanda wee is kawaii nehhhh! i wanna go out with you, kawaii neh amanda weeeee!:D grah i miss you alot alot.! Oh and shafiqah still hasnt got her glass noodles. oooooops :x

awwh my leg hurts like shitzzz. haha first time in my entire life i experience muscle strains in my leg): but going out with my friends is totally worth the painnnn, so i dont really care.
Went out with calanthea, zemaine and rachel today and felt like a miserable broker. walked around and bought movies to watch the bee. its a really gooooooooood show!(: its a love story between a bee and a humain. awwh, though we were late for the movie :)


bought a strawberry shortcake mirror at long last, that cute strawberry girl with her pinky itsy hat.(: i love her to bits. i even have a file with her pictures yo, how great is that(:
we went neoprinting after that! it was really fun with the thousands of machiness and everything and realized smth today - calanthea likes all things pretty and sparkly and pink!(: cuz all the neoprints she decorated has sparkly things, hearts and little twinkle stars. and she likes to put 'Friends,' how cool is that :D


We spent quite long at takashimaya cuz calanthea wanted to buy a long-sleeved top for the airport. and so i tried on some stuff out of boredom and im gna drag my mum back there. so many nice things, whee!:D hahah and then shopped around. had beard papa, bubble tea and zemaine had donuts. then we walked around againnn. gee i love you guys(:
my stingy dad only gives me $25 to spend but i luvvv him anw ;D



I put my trust in my all-forgiving Alpha Omega Father, who cradles me in His hands and calls me His baby, his wonderful child.
When I crave and hunger Your spirit please answer my call, O Lord. I want to be of service to You.

Wah jillybeanie i feel like laughing my head off, zister :)
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I love my family so flipping much<3
Eh, whats wrong with you, Kitano? you are a sadist sadist sadist.

Purchase your flying pig, right now and today.

Just some random thing.


Did y'know pigs can fly? Well, they can!
Buy this very cool pair of detatchable wings which can be snapped on and off. Price, $39. Free shipping and a free pig. One of the best inventions around. Pigs can fly!


Man man man, you must buy these soon. Get your very own personal, hands-on experience with the world's greatest mystery and fantasy - flying pigs! Forget UFOs, they're so OUT :)

Yeahhh, its church now baby(:
haha i bought the really nice nice yoghurt strawberry sweets - the ones to assist the east timor missions funding. damnn addictive, super nice. sat with shermaine and ate them, she bough the blackcurrent ones which were equally nice :D


Y'know what? i realized smth.
i went to ruth's ignyte yesterday and actually, compared to us, their wayy better and its more lively. I almost slept during todays sermon, believe it or not. i think jiaen did for a few minutes but anw, our church sermon is like a beautiful drug dose drugging you to your own lah lah land:(
I hate my pullover nowwww. so disgusting, so smelly too. i've been getting my bloody gory fix - from battle royale! i managed to find a few surviving episodes, about ten. so i'm quite happy looking at shuya for a considerably long time(:


My sister cut her hair - bangs. Whats the biggie with bangs now anw?

youtube still has battle royale shows. coolio nehs (:

i'll be missing you, its not another day

I absolutely hate this. can you please tell me what is going on?
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I feel suicidal.

This is disgusting. there are even light and ryuuzaki posers on friendster, and one two light yagami's fighting. It's absolutely true. its flipping poser. http://profiles.friendster.com/user.php?uid=51631715

Whee, i just realized amerie's half korean. ITS SO COOL! Haha and my bigger sister came up to me and replied, "Oh? no wonder amerie's so ugly.'

yup, my sister's mean like that.
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Today was outing with ruthhhhh. that shoe-a-holic, we trooped from mondo to mondo to get two shoes and she spent $5.90 on a pretty white shoe!:) which was kinda worth it though. Though, walking in orchard road is like walking from singapore to china againnnn. i feel like i went for a cardio workout or smth.
I bought a spongebob shirt and the eyes look like my boobs! eww. but its cute and cute, so i dont really mind. but it looks kinda pervy, heehee.
The lady at the spongebob place was nice though. she gave me a discounted $5 telling me 'she understands cuz students have no money' and shooed me off before her husband knew she gave discounts. so nice :)


today was basically shopping and shopping with ruth. ily :D
we didnt camwhore, sadly but we had a nice time though! wanted so many things. there were cardigans for $7.90 and were busy talking:) My damn skirt spoilt the whole thing! Man it practically dropped at far east. ARRGH! the whole world could have seen my panty back then! Which of course, is not really nice cuz it doesnt have lace. if its lace then it'll probably be good eh? :) I could have done a Britney.

Uncle daniel is one of the best damn cooks around :)

We had this picture even though it was raining. love you sis :}

Hokay! tomorrow will be some quality family bonding time with 'rents and sisters, although i havent hit a good note with my smaller sister. It wasnt very highhh, neither was it very gooood/:

First i woke up in the morning i played mario on her gameboy, she screamed her head off at me. then she went to school and came back. asked me for help with the king koopa and i said no, no. Then she scolded me, again. I dont help her with that damn king koopa she comes screaming after me, so anw i played it in the end. if i refuse she'll give that kawaii face to my mother. She thinks all my friends are cool and gives kawaii faces to them if possible. If not, she'll just treat me kindly in front of them. Her spells works magic on everyoneeee.

Outing with ruthwully! cant wait

I don't know but i'll try my best. God knows best.! :)

Hey, i barely started on my holiday homework. and i just realized that!

Haha im bored nowwww. my holiday is filled with fantastic cheapthrills like water babies, minitoon socks and magazines. AND fantastic mangas of course, and the countless hours staring at his face (if i go blind i'm gna sue fujiwara)


Y'know what japanese men are really pretty - like girls. my sister thinks that tatsuya is gay (v-cut tops, what other thing can you think?) and sissy. Uhhuh, well he is. but he's a hot gay/sissy man, so thats kinda enough for me :) but kenichi matsuyama is pretty hot too. saw his pictures today and well - i drooled for a pretty long time (cheap thrills!) and alternated between fujiwara and him for three hours straight :D


I know, i take obsession to a whole new different level right.


Near and mello too. Man, the whole manga rocks.
I have a Japanese-y weakness for all things japanese which includes, the pretty japanese men. kawaii nehx! :D

Hey sister, you piss me off but i love you still :)

C'mon, who's your momma? :)

I snuck the dolly magazine to schoooool! :)

Say hello to my kawaii teacher! :D

Jesus Jehovah Jireh, You're absolutely my everything. Take everything I have into Your arms, everything I could possibly have, cuz I wanna live for You.

guides today was different from any other ordinary guides meeting. we cooked deepavali stuff but ended up eating up everything for ourselves :)

was actually supposed to take bus to rachel's home and go to schuul after that but my dad offered to pick me up - so i had to walk from the bus stop back to my home. it felt like walking from china to singapore. man you could at least hypothesize the drilling pain in my legs.

i feel like a meanie monster and disgusting and irritating today. just a little self reflection on my part, anw. i really want to try reflecting on myself and changing myself slowly and slowly :}

made friends with liwen today, too :)

talked with xuanlin and liwen today - deathnote, cliquish things and peer pressure. haha, i do have my sources, liwen. haha dont worry hokay, aight? :D

im going to start ranting now. i feel super annoyed.

I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO DESPERATELY. im freaking annoyed, or maybe its just me.

I'm so sorry, rachel):


im at home now. was supposed to go off for guides, but now my father fetched me home. i feel so much for ponning it, but cant): anw im halfway through the activites for guides, so i might as well not pon any activity and attend everything :)


i have been learning to control my temper for a few days now, and i think its pretty good. my sister hasnt been pissing me off for a while and now when they piss me off, i just count to ten. i rock :)

i feel freaking fat.!
thinspo does nothing. i hate this, im gna lose 5kg. no matter what, i need to skinny down):

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I feel fat, lousy and disgusting. maybe its because i bought the cookie donuts just now but hey, it was a nice indulgence, haha :D
i need to go to the gym! i wanna do cardio and work my way down to 40kg ( doing it the healthy wayyyyy!) :)

Tomorrow's guides. meeting up with rachel before we go off for school. we're gna cook deepavali sweets and snacks. i inticipate its gonna be real fun :D

i love you. very much. you didnt know that?

Aspc ym camp.! anyone wanna come? :D
I asked thousands of people alr. people said no. invited esther. also no. invited ruth, also no. WHY CANT ANYONE COME?! elizabeth alsoo. argh. im fed up thinking of who to invite :P
but i shall peservere cuz i really do want to invite someone. bimbo talk - like badly):


at church nowwww.
i feel like a loser shutting myself in the computer room and ignoring the pretty outside world and socializing. well, i guess the computer's very good friends with me. I love you, computer :)
today's sermon was actually like a.. sleeping pill. sermons actually put me off. i rather short sweet sermons that are powerful and strong as well. but i really felt God today and that's good. hahaha. i sound so religious here. man :D

Well okay, for emphasis, i feel like a loser. i think i am a loser and a antisocial loner so if anyone agrees you can put your hands up
i love going out with my friends - please dont get me wrong. but i dont know how to keep a conversation going and i probably piss people off. once you start a conversation with me, well - i can go off talking and talking like a surefire bomb. i just cant find smth to talk about, awkwardness is probably me. WHEE.

I hate my sister's glam life, her friends. I think - almost everything about her. She has girly sleepovers and everything, they camwhore like there's no other tomorrow and they share pretty little dresses! how exciting.
Her friends are stick skinny thin and wear bikinis and party around the pool. WELL, what about me? im the ass with a bulging tummy and doesnt give a damn about working out.

i dont really want to end up like ryuuzaki :D

ryuuzaki triumphed so booya to you, light yagami :D
near rocks your socks off too.

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Booya, you freak! :D

I hate my sister. for today, anw D:<
today at serene i was in my shirt (i know it was baggy!) and jeans, and my sister insulted me by saying i was unfashionable! like wth, she thinks like she's damn fashionable or smth. she can keep on dreaming. she never ever talks to me unless its talking about pretty little shoes and pretty dresses. we never ever talk. even if i do want to talk to her about other things, she will change the topic to her pretty dress or what, BIG FAT PRETTY PUMPS?!
I dunno, but i just dont really like the fact her mind's filled with fashion and fashion until she never talks to me at all. i like laughing(i know, im sadistic!) when she cant fit into skinny jeans cuz they're too tight. i dont really like walking shops with her too. I just want to talk and shop and talk sisterly things - y'know what i mean? And plus, she goes around insulting my clothing like she owns the world.

If i listen to chinese songs, she'll think i'm a lianer. fact is, i dont mind chinese songs but i dont want to get called a lianer by my sister. if i want a shirt and apparently if it looks very lian to her i cant buy it. I brought teenage home because rachel ming gave it to me and she calls me a lianer. i read jodi picoult and she goes 'ooh you're interested in sex?'

D:<

piss off, jillian D:<


today was ym, we watched the columbine high thing. not really nice as i expected, though. it sounded more like a draggy sermon, but the only thing that really made me sit up was rachel joy scott. i really admire her much much :)

i cant wait! cineleisure neoprinting with calanthea, zemaine and rachel if possible, two weeks from noww. im too bored at home already.

damn, ryuuzaki died. this sucks.

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sorry for the countless deathnote rantings. guess i couldnt help it/:
but wth, how can light yagami kill such a good man. light is stupid. he doesnt even know wth he is doing. and L treated you as his damn friend, light yagami. i know you're just a picture in a manga but, damn you light yagami, you idiot. D:<

later's ym! i really cant wait, its going to be a movie. Columbine high secrets, its rachel's tears! :D

I hate that assing light yagami even if he's hot, right now. whoever kills L sucks, and light yagami sucks. i just want to dig his eyeballs out right now and box his ears in D:

YM LATER!
and i cant wait, you know what i mean :D

This is funny, Higuchi looks like a distorted monkey. its real funny when you think of it. he's an ugly kira too :D
Oh man the manga is really getting exciting minute by minute, and the internet keeps switching on and off! but now its really exciting alr so im going to go awayyyyy! toodels :D

Matsuda-san is in deep shit now, uh oh D:

Matsuda is damnn cute, i tell you. At first, I laughed like shitxxxz cuz he thought kira was groovy and uncool. Haha actually i sound like a japanese manga obsessed fan but really, death note is really that good! if its not good then its totally unworth my daily staring at the computer cuz the damn manga would probably spoil my eyes one day. i know good things when i see it :D


I really cant wait for the parts when mello, matt and near appears.!