(RANT!/)

I feel fat. especially looking at the slew of thinspo xangas, and the flipping thin people i see. you really cant help aspiring to lose some stupid weight. how thinspiring. im going crazy. especially when i go into a changing room in malacca and see thousands of thin malaysians poppping in and out of the changing rooms, sucking in their stomachs in a size 0 top. rah):
Everything around me tells me to be self-confident and accept myself for who i am, and i really want to. especially when i have two really thin sisters, and im born naturally abit bigger sized than they are, and my tummy is definitely bigger than them. I always get my tummy made fun of by my family. when i was in australia at seven years old, they called my tummy 'jiam jiam' cuz they were jiggly giggly:)


Everytime my sisters come out in super gorgeous camis and everything - they look really great. They wear figure hugging tops and encourage me to do the same. they dont understand why i wear my oversized tees. When they're oversized,they're really oversized:) They tell me to junk my oversized tees, but my oversized tees are the love. I just cant be like them. It may be easy for them and for everyone but not for me.
Self confidence isnt easy to get, y'know?