hello people. haha. how long was this blog manz. HAHA by the way i'm sec three now, how time flies (: see you guys when pigs fly! going pops later to get some art stuff for our bubbletea stall @ guides house on 27th june!

Back to this blog for awhile, I know everyone misses me alot :] Have been trying to read up my old blogger posts and the so many things that've happened in my life! Both exciting, saddening and everything. I love my life, hate my life, love my life. It's so interesting to see the many things around me, soak them up. My friends have been the bomb, and my uncle is really retarded :} other than that, 2008 has been really hectic and chunked up. I'm at church now with a plate of noodles and chilli next to me! LALALA lol its really nice. The chilli looks pretty but the noodles look like worms. Hee:)

I'm gonna permeanantly shift back to xanga. Say byebyes, but I will blog here when I can. My memories are all still here, y'know?:)

Hiyyyyyyyya:)
I miss this blog alot. Xanga has been rather cranky but its better than anything, and Xanga uploads its pictures REALLYreally fast. Sorry for the long time not blogging.

School has been kinda great. Im secondary two now, in guides, and completely rubbished on by a certain junior in my school): Just because I asked you to join guides doesnt mean you can call me _________ stupid anytime you want. But its quite okay now cuz cassandra, pamela yeo, rachel ming, ruth goh, phang xuan lin, priscilla, tammie, and my ever so cool patrol leader Gillian make it nice:)

aloha toots pardon for the really really long hiatus and nonupdate status:) shifted over to my xanga cos i thought nobody bothers to read this blog anymore and read a Homer (d'oh!) poser:)
xanga.com/madhatterescapade.


till then, ciaooooo

(RANT!/)

I feel fat. especially looking at the slew of thinspo xangas, and the flipping thin people i see. you really cant help aspiring to lose some stupid weight. how thinspiring. im going crazy. especially when i go into a changing room in malacca and see thousands of thin malaysians poppping in and out of the changing rooms, sucking in their stomachs in a size 0 top. rah):
Everything around me tells me to be self-confident and accept myself for who i am, and i really want to. especially when i have two really thin sisters, and im born naturally abit bigger sized than they are, and my tummy is definitely bigger than them. I always get my tummy made fun of by my family. when i was in australia at seven years old, they called my tummy 'jiam jiam' cuz they were jiggly giggly:)


Everytime my sisters come out in super gorgeous camis and everything - they look really great. They wear figure hugging tops and encourage me to do the same. they dont understand why i wear my oversized tees. When they're oversized,they're really oversized:) They tell me to junk my oversized tees, but my oversized tees are the love. I just cant be like them. It may be easy for them and for everyone but not for me.
Self confidence isnt easy to get, y'know?

Wheeeeeeeee.
Im happy and high now. Haha, yay. I really cant wait to spend time with my mum:)

Maybe its just an illusion? I think it is.