d'oh!

2009-06-02T02:37:00.000-07:00

hello people. haha. how long was this blog manz. HAHA by the way i'm sec three now, how time flies (: see you guys when pigs fly! going pops later to get some art stuff for our bubbletea stall @ guides house on 27th june!

2008-01-26T18:53:00.000-08:00

Back to this blog for awhile, I know everyone misses me alot :] Have been trying to read up my old blogger posts and the so many things that've happened in my life! Both exciting, saddening and everything. I love my life, hate my life, love my life. It's so interesting to see the many things around me, soak them up. My friends have been the bomb, and my uncle is really retarded :} other than that, 2008 has been really hectic and chunked up. I'm at church now with a plate of noodles and chilli next to me! LALALA lol its really nice. The chilli looks pretty but the noodles look like worms. Hee:)

I'm gonna permeanantly shift back to xanga. Say byebyes, but I will blog here when I can. My memories are all still here, y'know?:)

2008-01-17T21:44:00.001-08:00

Hiyyyyyyyya:)
I miss this blog alot. Xanga has been rather cranky but its better than anything, and Xanga uploads its pictures REALLYreally fast. Sorry for the long time not blogging.

School has been kinda great. Im secondary two now, in guides, and completely rubbished on by a certain junior in my school): Just because I asked you to join guides doesnt mean you can call me _________ stupid anytime you want. But its quite okay now cuz cassandra, pamela yeo, rachel ming, ruth goh, phang xuan lin, priscilla, tammie, and my ever so cool patrol leader Gillian make it nice:)

2007-12-17T11:39:00.000-08:00

aloha toots pardon for the really really long hiatus and nonupdate status:) shifted over to my xanga cos i thought nobody bothers to read this blog anymore and read a Homer (d'oh!) poser:)
xanga.com/madhatterescapade.

till then, ciaooooo

2007-12-03T01:43:00.000-08:00

(RANT!/)

I feel fat. especially looking at the slew of thinspo xangas, and the flipping thin people i see. you really cant help aspiring to lose some stupid weight. how thinspiring. im going crazy. especially when i go into a changing room in malacca and see thousands of thin malaysians poppping in and out of the changing rooms, sucking in their stomachs in a size 0 top. rah):
Everything around me tells me to be self-confident and accept myself for who i am, and i really want to. especially when i have two really thin sisters, and im born naturally abit bigger sized than they are, and my tummy is definitely bigger than them. I always get my tummy made fun of by my family. when i was in australia at seven years old, they called my tummy 'jiam jiam' cuz they were jiggly giggly:)

Everytime my sisters come out in super gorgeous camis and everything - they look really great. They wear figure hugging tops and encourage me to do the same. they dont understand why i wear my oversized tees. When they're oversized,they're really oversized:) They tell me to junk my oversized tees, but my oversized tees are the love. I just cant be like them. It may be easy for them and for everyone but not for me.
Self confidence isnt easy to get, y'know?

2007-11-28T17:54:00.000-08:00

Wheeeeeeeee.
Im happy and high now. Haha, yay. I really cant wait to spend time with my mum:)

2007-11-27T06:26:00.000-08:00

Maybe its just an illusion? I think it is.

2007-11-27T03:00:00.000-08:00

The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
Urh, random people. Random random people.

When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Haha yeah. Like duhhhhhhh:)

In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
Listener.

Do you take compliments well?
Haha, no one has complimented me so far yet.

Do you play Sudoku?
I aint that cheeem. I dont even get how to play Sudoku no matter how many times you attempt to explain it to me:)

If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
Thats exactly why I joined guides for

Do you like to ride horses?
YupPpZz

Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Haha church camp

What was your favourite game as a kid?
Sisscors paper stone

If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married what would you do?
Tell that sexy person to get lost cuz it aint sexy to come after complete idiots like me and stay faithful to his wife.

Could you date someone with unequal religious beliefs as you?
NO. Never.

Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Haha i enjoy the pursued part but i hate pursuing, thank you:)

Are you ticklish?
No, i just stone and think of daisies and poppy flowers

Do any songs make you cry?
Yeah. The Fray 'How to save a life' I love that song alot.

Do y'know how to shoot a gun?
I wishhhhhh

If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
My family picture, handphone and bolster

Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Present.

Favourite children's book?
'Mrs Mole's Bedtime Stories'

How tall are you?
How tall am I? Oh yeahh, verrrrrry tall):

Where is your dream house located?
The mansion God has alr prepared for me:) haha with gold chocolate bars and flying cherubs!

What name brand is your computer?
Compaq

Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
Yes! Neoprinting is the love yo.

What flavour is your favourite lollipop?
Coca cola.

Where was the furthest place you travelled today?
My bedroom:)

Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Sleep.

Do you look like your mum or dad?
I look like my mummmy. My bigger sister looks like my dad and my rents say my smaller sister was a mixture of a sperm and a potpot. HAHA

How long does it take for you to shower?
10 minutes if i'm feeling really zilian.

Can you do splits?
NooooOOOoooooOOOOO):

What movie do you want to see right now?
BRATZ! haha

Would you like to make a shoutout?
HAHA YES. HELLOOOOOO WORLD!:)

What song would you like to dedicate?
'Shut up and drive' by Rihanna to my daddy cuz he cant stop emphasizing how hot he is when he's behind that wheel :)

Do you own a camera phone?
Haha yes. for camwhoring purposes:)

Who would you like to dedicate that song to?
My lovely daddy:)

Candles or incense?
Candles.!

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
11 hours. I oversleep way too much.

Do you like Carebears?
I love them alot.! Especially the junkfood tees with the really cute bears printed all over them. I want a carebears shirt!:)

What do you buy at the movies?
Popcorn and nachos!

Do you know how to play poker?
Even if i knew how to play poker I'm never allowed to play poker.

Do you wear your seatbelt?
No, dont really give a damn about that seatbelt anw :)

What do you wear to sleep?
Pyjamas and sometimes shorts and a shirt. I want pretty PJs!:)

Are you in love?
Not exactly love. but sHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhh:)

Do you like funny or serious people better?
Funny. I like people who crack stupid jokes!:)

Ever been to LA?
Haha i wish man:(

Did you eat a cookie today?
No! I need famous amos!:)

Do you use cuss words in other languages?
Sadly, yeah): In malay. Who told shafiqah to go learn chinese vulgarites and shoot them at me huh huh huh:) So i learn malay vulgarites from my malay friends and do the same to her :)

Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
Pay pay pay

Do you hate chocolates?
No no no, i detest them so badly if they didnt look like mini devils with forks and horns! Grah they're temptations!):

Are you a gullible person?
Yeah, thats what my sister says

Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
No

If you could have any job(assuming you have the skills) what job would you take?
Lawyer, i wanna debate debate debate.

Are you easy to get along with?
Haha yeah as long as you dont piss me off.

What is your favourite time of the day?
When my stomach feels empty, and when its raining. When i feel God:)

Credits to esther!/

You shine brighter than the whole milky way-

2007-11-25T06:29:00.000-08:00

i feel so cheap and poor and low class in clarke quay. HAHHHHAH. even crabs and hooters makes me feel poor.
today we went to hooters for dinner after rotting on chairs and camwhoring, and it was really fun tho. the first time i went to clarke quay in the night and its really beautiful and dreamy! But the hooters waitresses were wearing orange FBTs pulled up till like infinitely like hot shorts. one of them were trying to seduce this american guy, showing their butt cracks and everything. He didnt even seem the least interested but the other guys were. haha:) it was fun watching though. And the big funky bump sign.

Haha today i was talking politics!
I really miss God, I really do. Talked to himm for a really really long time today, and i prayed to invite someone to youth camp. then i waited a few secs and sms-ed gillian. Then i prayed agaain (hahah to be sure to be sure!) and she really replied yes.! :) So i was really hyper at hooters and i was really happy with everything and the grace God has given. YAY!:)
Friday will be angmor days with my mummmm. Haha love our angmor days. Angmor days rule!:)

2007-11-24T06:10:00.000-08:00

Today was really nice, though i skipped the ym special day. grr. i didnt want to skip it initially but my bigger sister was all druggy and drowsy and didnt want to go for ym, and my mum had a bbq going on later so i skipped ym to help her. I really should have gone):
Gillian, my mum, my maid, Jillian and my sister Ashley all love my THEFACESHOP nail strengthenng thang! HAHHAHA i rock in my choices dont i? i painted my chinese teacher's nails rad! she luvxxxs it mun. really does:) forgot to give ruth her nail varnish thing. eeeeh. i owe many many people debts. GRAH. i owe rachel ming her ben and jerrys money and guides money, neoprints money. i really plan to clear them.

My IOU.

I owe rachel ming six bucks for new york super fudge chunk and for neoprint money. i will pay them when school starts! I promisseeee.

Ah rachel ming you better be reading this!:) lol.

2007-11-23T06:10:00.000-08:00

Today was northpoint with ruth goh!
It was really fun though I havent been to northpoint for thirteen years and i printed out photos which were flipping cheap compared to thomson!:) and ruth got her picnic ham, and we also bought real cute teeny minitoon water bottles! Haha i have green. we walked around practically the whole of northpoint. i really want to go back to northpoint. i want to buy Keds! haha the really nice canvas flats. i want to buy a shirtdress and converse sneakers and cartunistas num slippers and skinny jeans! :)

My sister never allows me to touch her teen vogue cuz i always rip the covers apart! Haha and her Dolly.

____________________________

I'm a techno-phobe, haha!
Today was really deeesgusting. when i was sleeping my mum woke me up with her screaming and demanded me to clean up my tables. My cupboard, my clothing cupboard. I got real pissed off and just tucked my head under my blanket. but i wanted to make my mum happy so i cleaned up my table before i went off for northpoint.

Oooooh i see some drama.

2007-11-22T06:41:00.000-08:00

My temper has definitely cooled downnn now:)
I've been trying to control my tempers since this morning. It's quite okay and definitely getting the hang of it, and i'm happpppy!(: i could have flared up at my sister today but i didnt. but she flared up at me. HAH. turn the tables around yo :) God definitely helped me with it and had a big part to play in my change. I just love that :)

2007-11-21T19:19:00.000-08:00

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Please support!:)
Haha i really want to make a donation but i dunno how to, so i'm still trying! Since tuberculosis is there i don't really mind helping. Hey KFC is there toooo! Haha if kentucky chicken wings can help underprivileged people enjoy life and not worry bout hunger, I'm in! Finger lickin good!:)
Today went for my dental checkup and sadly aunty sharon wasnt in so we had this new guy who loved to ask me all sorts of puberty questions. like, throughout the whole checkup. So if he's checking your teeth he'll go ""So hello, Nicole, how long have you been menustrating? Have you hit puberty?" then seconds later he'll go "How does puberty feel like for you?"
We had to wait for my dad while he did his puberty questions thang. then my dad came and i have to do dentaal surgery, my whole face gna change! HAHHH:) then you have to teach me how to eat!:D

Haha ok. goodbye. will blog if i have the time. Tooooodels :)

2007-11-18T07:03:00.000-08:00

/Lol randoom quiz i just took from ruth so credits to her :)

A random girl asks you your name
Haha say hi? :)

The last thing you put in your mouth
Toothpaste cuz toothpaste is my bestie

What was the last message on your phone
k i'll wear a bikini tmr. SEXY RITE? :D nite...

The last song you listened to
My mummy's sappy/love korean drama songs. I love singing them, sarang-haeyo! :)

Who do you trust in your life?
All my friends. I don't really tell them the really sensitive things though. But i trust everyone! :)

Would you move to the USA to be with someone you love?
Haha depends.

Talked on the phone in the shower?
Yeah. To carrie, in primary six. Loudspeaker toooo so they can hear shower sounds. I actually talk to people when i pee too, if you're the unfortunate little weenie. My little secret, shhhhh.

Would you stop talking to your friends because of your girlfriend/boyfriend?
No way. Never in a flipping million years.

Fill in the blank: I love ________.
God and everything He gave me.

Who will you wanna marry?
A man that most probably appreciates me for who I am.

Who will you wanna call after waking up from your coma?
Family cuz my family is da bomb:) then call my friends and say hello and make them little presents.

How many kids do you wanna have
Haha 10! Or maybe 11, its enough to make up a football team yo! :)

What will you call your kids?
Peeping Tom, Cheerful Dick and Harry Potter. and if more then three than i'll search the Bible for names :)

Your surname?
Chiaaaaaaaaaa

Favourite toy
I still love the really ugly but cute chinatown pig that i bought with carrie lim:) I love it to bits. Has meanning to it.

Right or left handed?
Hahhhha, righttt! :)

Been to Paris
I WANT.

Last person you kissed?
My bolster and my mum. My bolster aint qualifying as a person aint it :)

Do you love anyone now?
Yes. Family, friends, Jessie and God

What are you doing?
Fighting the King Koopa? :)

Today was really bad/horrible/fun and other than praising God, the shopping and family bonding time, the rest of it was awful. Though i'm thai expressing tmr!
Started out real horrible, i got scolding from my dad because i answered back really rudely cuz i was really pissed i was forced to wake up so early and everything): So sorry, God):

Then later i had to make the hardest choice of my life - who to obey? like wth, who am i supposed to obey? I have two people to please - who do you expect me to please huh? I was really irritated, I couldnt stand it so i just burst out crying like a baby and called Ruth, cried the bugger and shizz out of myself. i looked like a pontianak with red eyes and blotchy shriveled nose crying. haha.
my sisters really cheered me up though. we went nydc and had pizza and everything and literally went crazy - i even have a cheena photo of my mum and dad kissing in nydc doing those smooch poses thats the so very in thing now :) went to wheelock and went to ipod shop - really want an iPod touch! and a iMac so i can do happy camwhoring. we camwhored with the comp and the people were rather pissed off. but do weee looook like we care? Nuh uh :) My dad's a happy hip camwhorer yo! My mum went shopping for christmas cards.
Tis the season to be jolly. I'm christmass plannnnnnner!

WANNNNNNNA TURKEY ? :]

2007-11-17T07:31:00.000-08:00

/my smaller sister has beautiful eyes of an angel and the meanness of a tiger fury inside her. criticizes people very very easily.
Jillian got this really pretty tartan dress from my cousin, and she came in bashing into our room, her voice happy happy happy in her tartan dress.

Jillian: Tadah! *smiles one big cheesy smile*

Ashley: Omg do i look like i really care? *continues playing gameboy and smirks*

If you scoldd that angel she gives you the dao look, and then does her really popular donald duck mouth. My dad got really tempted to staple her mouth. Hah, cuz my dad rules like that (:
Oh she just insulted my gameboy. Moist with fungi? No way.

2007-11-17T04:30:00.000-08:00

His lips pressed coldly against her neck.
Softly she breathed, her heart skipped a beat. Then he withdrew his lips and looked at her beautiful face gently.

(edit/)

today was really fun. met up with my senior, jinger, though the last time she talked to me was six months ago for a school survey! But she was really nice and all - so met up with her at somerset mrt and went off to her church, Hope Church. Something like ruth's ignyte, flashlights and bright lights and really enthusiastic cheers and all. Hyped up, and all ready to give God his rightful glory on his throne :)
Yup. today started off really bad. I was in a flipping rush today - had tuition in the morning then lunch at my grandmother's house. And then i had to change to go for jinger's ym. My mother scolded me for not bringing a bag and demanded me to change to jeans. So i changed and had to stashed my jeans in an envelope. Haha how unglammmmm. the mrt guy thought i was carrying about a bomb!

Haha i have a couple of things to really complete this week!
And I really have to rush my glass noodle date with shafiqah. she really wants her glass noodles bad. like shizzzz, she's been bugging me for her glass noodles for a few days alr. if i put off our date she's gna scream her head off and ignore me for six whole years ):
I have ruth's present to complete too. And small little letters to give out to people and ym camp! gah no one wants to come! still thinking of people. hee. hahahahhah maybe i'm lonely and a really lonesome loner! AMANDA WEE I AM COUNTING ON YOU. lol.

Go running.
Do up ruth's present ( eeh i still cant get the fabric right y'know!)
Do up esther wong aka strawberry bananaa's present (ditto for the stupid fabric who refuses to listen)
Grow closer to my one God Almighty. I need it badly.
LOSE WEIGHT.
Christmas shopping with many people like ruth or rachel or anyoneeee!:)
Finish my homework by this week. (HHAHAH fat dreams.)
Invite at least one person for ym camp!

Oh yeah. can i ask you what i ever did to you?

2007-11-16T05:59:00.000-08:00

i have my name in kakatana on amanda whee's blog, yo :)
back from thanksgiving, and the sermon was really boring tho. went to raffles after that with claudia, rachel ming, cassandra, pamela and amanda wee! HAH she came! dont pon eh dont pon! :) Haha went burger king, and after claudia left, cassandra got very high on milo. told me to scold her if she went hyper. didnt scold her, and in the end rachel, me, cassandra and pamela threw ice on each other in school uniform in burger king in a public place, hawhaw :D
the primary sixes from smps went outside with their friends and started crying and hugging each other, their faces all blotchy and red. psle results coming out next weeeek!

Haaha amanda wee is a zilian womannnnn cuz when i took out my strawberry shortcake mirror to show her she took it and neatened her hair! :) Gah pamela yeo thank you for the neoprints and the really sweet message. love you! :

Today was really bad and i hate today alot.

2007-11-15T04:03:00.000-08:00

haha actually torture camp was better than i expected. anw, i have withdrawal.fits/:
i miss the powder in my legs, the sound of jessie barking, my mum's constant nagging, my dad's funny little boastful quotes. i missed my sisters so much too that i almost cried but when i got in the car with ruth all i got from my smaller sister was, 'Omg i am so happy to have you home. Finally.' And of course, its sarcasticc. And all i got from jillian was scolding throughout my whole car journey, back home at dinner.

Where's the loove?:(

The only really welcoming thing was that my mum said hello, my dad said hello and whipped up the bestest food ever. fried wings, oxtails and white rice and omelettes:)

I know, my commitments towards diets are absolute laopok -.-

Today was really funnnn, we had games and Splat is really fun! i wanna play Splat againnnn. eeeeh. i love that creepy face, y'know the evil ones with the torchlight (think villians!) :D
Yes, my pretty mosquito patches.
I planned to actually torture myself with jogging and running and cardio when i came back from camp but apparently i gorged myself instead -.-
Partnered shalakah for the nature walk. my thighs really ache, felt like tumbling down the stupid hill. Who knew the smallest hill in Singapore could kill you. haha and i put my insect repellent and water with cassandra lowww so i couldnt get my water bottle so Kirin shared her water with me. Princesses! i was practically dehydrateddd.
Thanks cass for offering to hold my things though! :D

I love drills all of a suddennn, though. eeh. tomorrow's thanksgiving, and i feel so pain and tired.

Ruth, thank you so much. The bestest wustest thing any friend did for me, and i really appreciate it. Water bomb! :)

2007-11-13T04:58:00.000-08:00

Ahh yes i'm prepared, breathing easy now. yes yes yes. Jaya asked for two tins of sausages but i only have tunaaa): Off to guides camp, eek):

Guides torture camp.

2007-11-12T23:49:00.000-08:00

Today was girly talk with my dad. Haha funnnnn!

'Dad, I feel fat! there's unwanted sludge all over my body.'

'Is that what girls talk about today? Nowadays? Is it the hip thing or smth?

'Maybe, yeah. I think so.'

'Have you seen worse ones, darling?' lifts up his shirt. 'Wanna see mine? If yours is sludge then what is mine? I don't have a six pack but i have one. It's the hippest thing ever.'

'Wow dad, that's really hot.'

Blushes. 'Haha yeah i know! then why would i show you!' -.-

My father is the best dad in my world, my entire world. he's late, he's funny and he thinks just because he's from acs he's hot. Everytime we pass acs, he goes 'Omg i'm so proud. acs guys very hot one y'know! haha i from acs you know! Which means i'm hot! HAHA!'

And then if we remind him he changed secondary school, he will go, 'So I'm half hot?' (:

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Today went amk hub to meet up with ruthhh.
I wanna pierce my ears.! cuz im so flipping lazy to even wear a earstick and even bother to keep my earhole open, my mother says she might have to reconsider. I bought stuff from watts in and rachel ming went to buy earrings with alphabets 'R' and 'M'
I'll buy her a 'J!' :D

Bought roller coaster, earrings and bubble tea. im obsessed with bubble tea. I love bubble tea. I like the pretty little harmless little pearls which can actually give me cancer. AND, the milk. sweettalk's really good! :D
Went around finding for rachel ming a cropped knit jacket which she really wanted and had to buy - but in the end we couldnt find anything cuz amk hub has barely anything. She's wearing a black shift dress and a polka dotted retro dress! IMAGINE how hot she'll look lah. and what _________ will think of her man! :)

Oh and my secondary four senior just invited me to her church.! :) the one who surveyed me six months ago, and i totally forgot how she looks like): at orchard cuppage point, hope church. I hope i can go, i really do.

Get well soon, pamela yeo! I wanna go out with you! haha do drills do drills!:) pomelo!

Guides torture camp is in one day time and i'm NOT prepared. i want to pon it! ARGH. i dont wanna go hiking!

2007-11-12T05:02:00.000-08:00

GOD, thank you so much. you give me the bestest friend you could ever give, and she was the one who renewed my faith and trust and spirit in You.

my other friend. thanks for coming to IGNYTE for 2 times. even though i actually pangsehed you to sit with the nice CH (: people you weren't angry with me. i really pray that you will draw nearer to God. it touches me to see you cry,no i ain't sadist. thanks for being my buddy(: my shopping/cam whorring/crapping. even though you aren't in express and there are differences between us,this friendship still rocks.

Thank you, ruth. yes you did do what you wanted, your praying workeddd. and there are absolutely no differences whether you're in express or whatever, cuz you rock no doubt about it :)
Sorry for the copying and pasting! and hahah you shoe-a-holic! I had the bestest talk with you tonight - really. just wanted to say i'll love you forever. awwh :)

HAHAHAHH amanda wee is kawaii nehhhh! i wanna go out with you, kawaii neh amanda weeeee!:D grah i miss you alot alot.! Oh and shafiqah still hasnt got her glass noodles. oooooops :x

2007-11-12T02:19:00.000-08:00

awwh my leg hurts like shitzzz. haha first time in my entire life i experience muscle strains in my leg): but going out with my friends is totally worth the painnnn, so i dont really care.
Went out with calanthea, zemaine and rachel today and felt like a miserable broker. walked around and bought movies to watch the bee. its a really gooooooooood show!(: its a love story between a bee and a humain. awwh, though we were late for the movie :)

bought a strawberry shortcake mirror at long last, that cute strawberry girl with her pinky itsy hat.(: i love her to bits. i even have a file with her pictures yo, how great is that(:
we went neoprinting after that! it was really fun with the thousands of machiness and everything and realized smth today - calanthea likes all things pretty and sparkly and pink!(: cuz all the neoprints she decorated has sparkly things, hearts and little twinkle stars. and she likes to put 'Friends,' how cool is that :D

We spent quite long at takashimaya cuz calanthea wanted to buy a long-sleeved top for the airport. and so i tried on some stuff out of boredom and im gna drag my mum back there. so many nice things, whee!:D hahah and then shopped around. had beard papa, bubble tea and zemaine had donuts. then we walked around againnn. gee i love you guys(:
my stingy dad only gives me $25 to spend but i luvvv him anw ;D

I put my trust in my all-forgiving Alpha Omega Father, who cradles me in His hands and calls me His baby, his wonderful child.
When I crave and hunger Your spirit please answer my call, O Lord. I want to be of service to You.

2007-11-11T07:14:00.000-08:00

Wah jillybeanie i feel like laughing my head off, zister :)
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I love my family so flipping much<3
Eh, whats wrong with you, Kitano? you are a sadist sadist sadist.

2007-11-11T03:47:00.000-08:00

Purchase your flying pig, right now and today.

2007-11-10T20:38:00.000-08:00

Just some random thing.

Did y'know pigs can fly? Well, they can!
Buy this very cool pair of detatchable wings which can be snapped on and off. Price, $39. Free shipping and a free pig. One of the best inventions around. Pigs can fly!

Man man man, you must buy these soon. Get your very own personal, hands-on experience with the world's greatest mystery and fantasy - flying pigs! Forget UFOs, they're so OUT :)

2007-11-10T20:30:00.000-08:00

Yeahhh, its church now baby(:
haha i bought the really nice nice yoghurt strawberry sweets - the ones to assist the east timor missions funding. damnn addictive, super nice. sat with shermaine and ate them, she bough the blackcurrent ones which were equally nice :D

Y'know what? i realized smth.
i went to ruth's ignyte yesterday and actually, compared to us, their wayy better and its more lively. I almost slept during todays sermon, believe it or not. i think jiaen did for a few minutes but anw, our church sermon is like a beautiful drug dose drugging you to your own lah lah land:(
I hate my pullover nowwww. so disgusting, so smelly too. i've been getting my bloody gory fix - from battle royale! i managed to find a few surviving episodes, about ten. so i'm quite happy looking at shuya for a considerably long time(:

My sister cut her hair - bangs. Whats the biggie with bangs now anw?

2007-11-09T19:22:00.000-08:00

youtube still has battle royale shows. coolio nehs (:

i'll be missing you, its not another day

2007-11-09T04:31:00.000-08:00

I absolutely hate this. can you please tell me what is going on?
-

I feel suicidal.

2007-11-08T08:48:00.000-08:00

This is disgusting. there are even light and ryuuzaki posers on friendster, and one two light yagami's fighting. It's absolutely true. its flipping poser. http://profiles.friendster.com/user.php?uid=51631715

2007-11-08T00:59:00.000-08:00

Whee, i just realized amerie's half korean. ITS SO COOL! Haha and my bigger sister came up to me and replied, "Oh? no wonder amerie's so ugly.'

yup, my sister's mean like that.
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Today was outing with ruthhhhh. that shoe-a-holic, we trooped from mondo to mondo to get two shoes and she spent $5.90 on a pretty white shoe!:) which was kinda worth it though. Though, walking in orchard road is like walking from singapore to china againnnn. i feel like i went for a cardio workout or smth.
I bought a spongebob shirt and the eyes look like my boobs! eww. but its cute and cute, so i dont really mind. but it looks kinda pervy, heehee.
The lady at the spongebob place was nice though. she gave me a discounted $5 telling me 'she understands cuz students have no money' and shooed me off before her husband knew she gave discounts. so nice :)

today was basically shopping and shopping with ruth. ily :D
we didnt camwhore, sadly but we had a nice time though! wanted so many things. there were cardigans for $7.90 and were busy talking:) My damn skirt spoilt the whole thing! Man it practically dropped at far east. ARRGH! the whole world could have seen my panty back then! Which of course, is not really nice cuz it doesnt have lace. if its lace then it'll probably be good eh? :) I could have done a Britney.

Uncle daniel is one of the best damn cooks around :)

2007-11-07T08:32:00.000-08:00

We had this picture even though it was raining. love you sis :}

Hokay! tomorrow will be some quality family bonding time with 'rents and sisters, although i havent hit a good note with my smaller sister. It wasnt very highhh, neither was it very gooood/:

First i woke up in the morning i played mario on her gameboy, she screamed her head off at me. then she went to school and came back. asked me for help with the king koopa and i said no, no. Then she scolded me, again. I dont help her with that damn king koopa she comes screaming after me, so anw i played it in the end. if i refuse she'll give that kawaii face to my mother. She thinks all my friends are cool and gives kawaii faces to them if possible. If not, she'll just treat me kindly in front of them. Her spells works magic on everyoneeee.

Outing with ruthwully! cant wait

I don't know but i'll try my best. God knows best.! :)

Hey, i barely started on my holiday homework. and i just realized that!

2007-11-06T23:33:00.000-08:00

Haha im bored nowwww. my holiday is filled with fantastic cheapthrills like water babies, minitoon socks and magazines. AND fantastic mangas of course, and the countless hours staring at his face (if i go blind i'm gna sue fujiwara)

Y'know what japanese men are really pretty - like girls. my sister thinks that tatsuya is gay (v-cut tops, what other thing can you think?) and sissy. Uhhuh, well he is. but he's a hot gay/sissy man, so thats kinda enough for me :) but kenichi matsuyama is pretty hot too. saw his pictures today and well - i drooled for a pretty long time (cheap thrills!) and alternated between fujiwara and him for three hours straight :D

I know, i take obsession to a whole new different level right.

Near and mello too. Man, the whole manga rocks.
I have a Japanese-y weakness for all things japanese which includes, the pretty japanese men. kawaii nehx! :D

2007-11-06T20:47:00.000-08:00

Hey sister, you piss me off but i love you still :)

2007-11-06T08:44:00.000-08:00

C'mon, who's your momma? :)

I snuck the dolly magazine to schoooool! :)

2007-11-06T07:41:00.000-08:00

Say hello to my kawaii teacher! :D

Jesus Jehovah Jireh, You're absolutely my everything. Take everything I have into Your arms, everything I could possibly have, cuz I wanna live for You.

guides today was different from any other ordinary guides meeting. we cooked deepavali stuff but ended up eating up everything for ourselves :)

was actually supposed to take bus to rachel's home and go to schuul after that but my dad offered to pick me up - so i had to walk from the bus stop back to my home. it felt like walking from china to singapore. man you could at least hypothesize the drilling pain in my legs.

i feel like a meanie monster and disgusting and irritating today. just a little self reflection on my part, anw. i really want to try reflecting on myself and changing myself slowly and slowly :}

made friends with liwen today, too :)

talked with xuanlin and liwen today - deathnote, cliquish things and peer pressure. haha, i do have my sources, liwen. haha dont worry hokay, aight? :D

im going to start ranting now. i feel super annoyed.

I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO DESPERATELY. im freaking annoyed, or maybe its just me.

2007-11-05T20:02:00.000-08:00

I'm so sorry, rachel):

im at home now. was supposed to go off for guides, but now my father fetched me home. i feel so much for ponning it, but cant): anw im halfway through the activites for guides, so i might as well not pon any activity and attend everything :)

i have been learning to control my temper for a few days now, and i think its pretty good. my sister hasnt been pissing me off for a while and now when they piss me off, i just count to ten. i rock :)

2007-11-05T01:02:00.000-08:00

i feel freaking fat.!
thinspo does nothing. i hate this, im gna lose 5kg. no matter what, i need to skinny down):

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I feel fat, lousy and disgusting. maybe its because i bought the cookie donuts just now but hey, it was a nice indulgence, haha :D
i need to go to the gym! i wanna do cardio and work my way down to 40kg ( doing it the healthy wayyyyy!) :)

Tomorrow's guides. meeting up with rachel before we go off for school. we're gna cook deepavali sweets and snacks. i inticipate its gonna be real fun :D

2007-11-03T20:39:00.000-07:00

i love you. very much. you didnt know that?

2007-11-03T20:23:00.000-07:00

Aspc ym camp.! anyone wanna come? :D
I asked thousands of people alr. people said no. invited esther. also no. invited ruth, also no. WHY CANT ANYONE COME?! elizabeth alsoo. argh. im fed up thinking of who to invite :P
but i shall peservere cuz i really do want to invite someone. bimbo talk - like badly):

at church nowwww.
i feel like a loser shutting myself in the computer room and ignoring the pretty outside world and socializing. well, i guess the computer's very good friends with me. I love you, computer :)
today's sermon was actually like a.. sleeping pill. sermons actually put me off. i rather short sweet sermons that are powerful and strong as well. but i really felt God today and that's good. hahaha. i sound so religious here. man :D

Well okay, for emphasis, i feel like a loser. i think i am a loser and a antisocial loner so if anyone agrees you can put your hands up
i love going out with my friends - please dont get me wrong. but i dont know how to keep a conversation going and i probably piss people off. once you start a conversation with me, well - i can go off talking and talking like a surefire bomb. i just cant find smth to talk about, awkwardness is probably me. WHEE.

I hate my sister's glam life, her friends. I think - almost everything about her. She has girly sleepovers and everything, they camwhore like there's no other tomorrow and they share pretty little dresses! how exciting.
Her friends are stick skinny thin and wear bikinis and party around the pool. WELL, what about me? im the ass with a bulging tummy and doesnt give a damn about working out.

i dont really want to end up like ryuuzaki :D

2007-11-03T09:17:00.000-07:00

ryuuzaki triumphed so booya to you, light yagami :D
near rocks your socks off too.

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Booya, you freak! :D

2007-11-03T06:56:00.000-07:00

I hate my sister. for today, anw D:<
today at serene i was in my shirt (i know it was baggy!) and jeans, and my sister insulted me by saying i was unfashionable! like wth, she thinks like she's damn fashionable or smth. she can keep on dreaming. she never ever talks to me unless its talking about pretty little shoes and pretty dresses. we never ever talk. even if i do want to talk to her about other things, she will change the topic to her pretty dress or what, BIG FAT PRETTY PUMPS?!
I dunno, but i just dont really like the fact her mind's filled with fashion and fashion until she never talks to me at all. i like laughing(i know, im sadistic!) when she cant fit into skinny jeans cuz they're too tight. i dont really like walking shops with her too. I just want to talk and shop and talk sisterly things - y'know what i mean? And plus, she goes around insulting my clothing like she owns the world.

If i listen to chinese songs, she'll think i'm a lianer. fact is, i dont mind chinese songs but i dont want to get called a lianer by my sister. if i want a shirt and apparently if it looks very lian to her i cant buy it. I brought teenage home because rachel ming gave it to me and she calls me a lianer. i read jodi picoult and she goes 'ooh you're interested in sex?'

D:<

piss off, jillian D:<

today was ym, we watched the columbine high thing. not really nice as i expected, though. it sounded more like a draggy sermon, but the only thing that really made me sit up was rachel joy scott. i really admire her much much :)

i cant wait! cineleisure neoprinting with calanthea, zemaine and rachel if possible, two weeks from noww. im too bored at home already.

2007-11-02T21:04:00.000-07:00

damn, ryuuzaki died. this sucks.

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sorry for the countless deathnote rantings. guess i couldnt help it/:
but wth, how can light yagami kill such a good man. light is stupid. he doesnt even know wth he is doing. and L treated you as his damn friend, light yagami. i know you're just a picture in a manga but, damn you light yagami, you idiot. D:<

later's ym! i really cant wait, its going to be a movie. Columbine high secrets, its rachel's tears! :D

2007-11-02T20:49:00.000-07:00

I hate that assing light yagami even if he's hot, right now. whoever kills L sucks, and light yagami sucks. i just want to dig his eyeballs out right now and box his ears in D:

YM LATER!
and i cant wait, you know what i mean :D

2007-11-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

This is funny, Higuchi looks like a distorted monkey. its real funny when you think of it. he's an ugly kira too :D
Oh man the manga is really getting exciting minute by minute, and the internet keeps switching on and off! but now its really exciting alr so im going to go awayyyyy! toodels :D

2007-11-01T06:56:00.000-07:00

Matsuda-san is in deep shit now, uh oh D:

2007-11-01T05:40:00.000-07:00

Matsuda is damnn cute, i tell you. At first, I laughed like shitxxxz cuz he thought kira was groovy and uncool. Haha actually i sound like a japanese manga obsessed fan but really, death note is really that good! if its not good then its totally unworth my daily staring at the computer cuz the damn manga would probably spoil my eyes one day. i know good things when i see it :D

I really cant wait for the parts when mello, matt and near appears.!

2007-10-31T23:41:00.000-07:00

I know, both this blog and my life is getting really voring to read also. haha, im really sorry :D

Another boring day today againn, went to thomson with my dad in the morning to rent and borrow videos and movies. borrowed transformers but wanted to borrow disturbia and shutter muchh): my sister borrowed all the bitchy high school shows to watch and sappy love shows, korean dramas. bought my death note manga and then went to buy yoghurtt!:)

Haha it was really good bonding time today with my lovely perverted father :D

I really love my dad, he bought the deathnote manga no matter how flipping pricey it was ( five bucks for thirty plus pages of paper just to see two geniuses talk crap throughout the whole thing)

Thank you dad, so much ♥

I havent got started on my holiday homework yet, i think i should go start now, im blogging and going online too much already :D

2007-10-31T07:22:00.000-07:00

Death note manga is damn addicting, i really can't stop reading and thinking about it! i already finished twenty smth chapters today.

2007-10-31T05:31:00.000-07:00

I have absolutely nothing to do! Argh somebody give me something to do!!

I'm rotting away slowly in my own home

2007-10-30T20:28:00.000-07:00

My cousin rocks socks, i tell you ♥

today is a really boring day.
the house has practically and absolutely nothing to do noww. i've been youtubing alott, and its very fun, and reading death note manga onlinee. I'm already at chapter ten!:)
other than cycling down to the minimart and buying sour power and chips to binge eat and amuse myself with, there's really nothing to do. im in no mood to go out either. holidays are really killing me):

And reading books and jodi picoult doesnt help either. so i've been cooped up in this damn house with nothing to do. I've also been praying alot to God lately these days about alot of issues - and to give me something to do :D Yesterday was really one of my funnest days with esther and throughout my boring holidays though its probably only seven days now. South division day was fun, though it was really slack all the way, and i went neoprinting with priscilla and pamela yeo. THAT was fun(:

YEAH. so thats my fantastic holidays, all i can remember.
i need excitement in my life pronto pronto pronto.

Okay i'm going back to my manga now :)

2007-10-30T04:20:00.000-07:00

hola hola, i walked eight bus stops! achievement much:)

had a haircut today with esther at koyee, and it still looks the same abit. kinda happy with it because i mantained my vemo fringe and didnt have to have it cut. so now my lovely fringe is below my eyees!
really didnt have anything to do today, so i randomly asked esther over to my home while watching deathnoteee. haha it was rather kewwl today we went thomsonnn and although i jabbed my sister in her arm and poked her randomly and she hit me in my ass back, it was still fun. we fought like childish assholes on the thomson escalator, jabbing, kicking, just because she thought i was uncool to have 'facebook' and thought she was damn cool just because she has facebook nowwwww.

Grah. i hate dkfjfghuifgufyguhgiuhdhbcj faceboook! D:<

2007-10-29T20:19:00.000-07:00

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

2007-10-29T20:04:00.000-07:00

back from the most fantastic sleepover though it was filled with constant constant nagging nagging:)
my grandmother insulted my bolster! this morning when i was walking out from the house all changed and ready to leave with the my nose to the bolster my grandmother said it was 'silly for a thirteen year old to walk around with her bolster slung over her arm!'
Haha quite cool right. dont really care actually. my baby cousin even said my bolster was 'chouchou'

HAHAHAHHAHH my bolster rules baby :)

I brought along jodi picoult to read but got bored instead and started camwhoring by myself in a small bedroomm, which is damn zilian, but there was nothing to do, i swear.! so its okay :) but hey, its was fun what.
I played whales and cars with my baby cousins, drew and played somemore, and my aunty has facebook.! She asked me whether i knew what facebook was and then she winked happily and said she had one.
I'm officially outdated and uncool. i dont even know what facebook was reading blogs with people screaming that they have 'facebook.'
Hey but i know what facebook is nowwww :)

fujiwara is damn hot though he's gay and sissy, and refuses to cut his damn hair. ♥

2007-10-28T23:00:00.001-07:00

Your eyes tell me different words. You say you're right, you rule the world. I listened enough, you ass, go shrivel up in your little corner like a small little rat.
You deserve it anyway. Don't tell me everything I have to do
-

I'm going to change my face in two years time and you must teach me how to eat.
I want to go coronation to buy my manga pronto so I can pass and while my time away at home while rotting. I'm planning to read three of jodi picoult's books.! im already finishing picture perfect. i have songs of the humpback whale, the tenth circle and vanishing acts. Yesterday i was talking with cheryl on msn about pride and prejudice, mr darcy and everything:)

I have nicholas sparks too and i know everyone's really interested in the really engrossing part of the boook. all the sexy parts eh:)
HAHAHAHA my father gets really excited at those parts.

egoistical and cynical

2007-10-28T22:36:00.000-07:00

I'm really bored nowwwww.

I love my grandmother alot.! I really do, she's like my most hippy grandmother in the whole world. when she came back from hongkong she went on ranting about three tiered skirts and H&M and she says she gets reminded about jillian when she sees three tier skirts and when she sees makeup, she thinks of me.!
Haha when do i remind people of eyeshadow and blusher and lipgloss (:
And i'm sleeping over tomorrow at her housee! though i'm not really sure what to do there.

Today i woke up at one with mosquito bites all over my body.

light yagami is really hot.
in both the comic and the movie. takeshi obata really knows how to pick his characters:)
If not why would his choose tatsuya to act as a egoistical and cynical asshole who is really hot! I'm listening to the manga opening soundtrack for most probably the millionth time, haha. He is an asshole anyway, light yagami is a cynical ass who treats himself like a god. Cynical, but hot ass :)

Oh and shiren, your blog's really nice.!
Hope we can go out one day yeah:)

2007-10-28T07:34:00.000-07:00

I have the most perverted, lecherous ah beng father worhx. He likes looking at my sister's fourteen year old friends in their skimpy bikinis and panties while looking at their camwhoring shots. He ooogles tooooo.
I'm so proud to have such a wonderful father.
-

y'know what? I'm going to tell you everything how i feel right now.

I feel so played, I feel so disgusting but I reach out to God, and He gives no reply.
I really want to go to Ruth's ignyte sesion again but I know if I do it for maybe four weeks or more my mother will chop my head off for church-hopping here and there.
ASPC ym is really cool and everything but I feel like a loner, like a miserable loner there. And to put things worse I feel more welcome at Ignyte though I know some fantastic friends and leaders I have at ASPC ym {:

I feel like I have to live up to everyone's expectations, though I know it's easy for me to live up to God's expectations. Damn do they expect me to be perfect? Assholes.
I sing to God in my soul, but my sisters dont and they muck me for singing,

I talk to noone, I'm a sucka at socializing. im just a weird antisocial ass you see mucking around doing nothing and probably engrossing herself in a book.
Like, do what the nerds do!

God i feel so angry now, i feel like chopping off anyone's head. Grah. kdfjgfdhtug8ruyuthghgyr8re847!

I'm in heart pyjamas with my face slapped with night cream all over. I am very unglammmm. My face is seething red and my nose is a volcano crater ready to explode in your damn face.

I was watching, the story of my life.

2007-10-28T01:54:00.000-07:00

The song 'Watashi' keeps ringing in my head. actually its not really watashi its just that watashi is currently the only japanese word i know. I keep thinking of those people in white clothes singing while everyone in the church is having their lunch, and their voices are damn kewwl :D

And can you believe it today during sec one/p6 cell i screamed like a sissy cuz there was a houseflyy!):
Ok sorry g'bye i want to watch deathnote now.

2007-10-27T19:56:00.000-07:00

I really want to go for the east timor mission trip.!
I wont imagine myself rubbing my dirty hands and doing dirty work I probably won't like to do. And maybe imagining how the toilets will look like and how the heck will i bathe. but i dont really care, i really want to go!):

There are people singing 'Watashi' in japanese in my church. like how cool is that lah(:

Tell me what's wrong with me, tell me everything.

2007-10-27T07:42:00.000-07:00

Yo homies, i'm really very vemo and bored noww. My hershey is all melted now, anyway, the black chunks of cookies slowly melting in my hand, and with nothing to doo.

Ice skating next wednesday with ruth and maybe other people. maybe haircutting with strawberry bananana next week too(:
Today went neoprinting with priscilla and pamela yeo at cineleisure, and was really awkward at first but they started playing with my 'vemo' hair, cuz they say it totally suits my damn personality (my hair's messy, so my table is messy tooooo!) And their right too, cuz my report book says i have to be more organized. And it was like the first time in ages i went neoprinting at cine. so japanese-y, and so many zilian people and lianers.

And cinelesiure has the nicest thing manxxz, i wish i had moneyy):

HAHAHHAHHAHAHH. i feel so mean for saying all this.

After that was ym and wasnt really that bad though i really wanted to go to ignyte instead, cuz of all the booming action and really nice, more moving altar calls and the very short sermons. God i feel so mean for saying all this, gah/:

Today the pastor was staring around blurrily after the sermon and turned around and looked at my shirt, then he looked up again and said, "Praise the Lord?" And I bluurrily replied back yes toooo, because i didnt really understand what he was saying.
I went on a pad shopping spree juzzzt now, my bad bad habit.

2007-10-26T05:42:00.000-07:00

Suddenly Alex had me cradled in his arms, the blanket falling away to reveal the red marks on my arm and the swelling near my ribs. He carried me into the bedroom and stretched me gently on the bed, so carefully that I did not even stir the comforter. He unbuttoned my blouse.

He brushed his lips over each spot, each ache, taking the pain and leaving behind a salve of tears. I held his head against my chest, thinking that this tenderness hurt even more.
"Shh," I said. "It's all right."

Last day of school and last day of honeymoons.

2007-10-26T05:23:00.000-07:00

Oh man, today's last day of school. Shuckity shucks shucks, will miss you guys ♥

Today was really fun mass cleaning, we went to clean up 4/3 and it was really dirty and stinky at first but all thanks to the cleaning crew we really did a good job of making the classroom smell like happy fraganced detergent in the end, but that ass siong boon made us stay back to clean the ledges of the windows and fans and everything - couldn't go off till he said so, anw D:
Was prettyy much camwhoring in the classes later on, nobody really gave a heck about the teachers. And and, our dear priscilla is transferring to express in 2008 uh, smartass! :D
Top in class tuuuu!

I will see how i can upload the pictures so that i can spice up this damn boring blog.! Shafiqah is a damn zilian personn!

xxx.

If you don't like me can you just freaking scream it to my face! D:<

One more day and its freedom for at least two months :}

2007-10-25T04:53:00.000-07:00

Today is one day before school closes, and we got back our report cards.
Everyone was crying, cursing the people who got transferred and comparing class positions and comments. We had to open our report books at the same time and today, amanda joy was really angry with pauline and her marks. But guess what, I should be even angrier. I am like what, bottom three of my class?! D:<

Yes, read it carefully. It does say bottom three):
I am the 37th position, out of a class of fourty peoplee. Can you believe it! Yes. And I have turned from a living walking Chinese A1 dictionary to a C5 barely passing Chinese dictionary.
It's like complete rubbish. I got my report card, held back my tears and comforted those who really needed the comforting more :) But at the bus stop near Serene I conferenced called my dad and mom and broke down and cried really bad.
The only freaking good thing about my report book is that i never ponned schooool.

Shafiqah really wants her Thai Express lunch/treat.
This Saturday is disgusting South Day division day and we have to go to kuo chuan secondary and do some peace talk and cheerleading.
And my guides uniform is getting tight which means I'm growing fat. Yucks tucks.

Tooooooodels.

Things left unspoken, things yet left unsaid

2007-10-24T05:55:00.000-07:00

Write ten things you want to say to ten people, do not say who the people are.

1. I love you though you're hyper and everything, and we must go out more soon okay? You have only two more days left in our school, and I will miss you so much. Thank you for inviting me to your church, stay spirited in God forever. And he will stay in you forever :)

2. I'll be like boytalking with you like, forever. Thank you so much for sharing all the boytalk you have yeah :)

3. Y'know what? If you find me irritating and i'm a pain in your ass just open your mouth and tell me can!

4. Though I didn't really know you much last year, you're really nice and everything, until I realized how you were really like :}

5. We have a common interest yeah! Though you think i'm angry for like what, 90% of my time, I still love you aight. I cant believe I made fun of fujiwara last time cuz you said you liked him!): I'll give you my pictures of him soon!(:

6. Low socks purrrdner in crime, love you very much. Upper your socks abit! :}

7. Thank you so much for listening to my really boring rambles, and I believe you can study hard if you set your mind to it and don't cry and worry so much about the results ok! Cheeeeer up!(:

8. Although I don't really know you very much, you're very nice and cheery! :)

9. I forgive you okay. I still can remember everything but it's okay, let's shove all our history behind us and keep our friendship ignited. The letter you sent me made me rethink my actions. Thankyeww(:

10. I love you, though I never had the chance to say so.

Ignyte -

2007-10-24T05:20:00.000-07:00

Hello jello.
I am very bored now. wanting to eat donuts, wanting to binge eat. I NEED MAGAZINES, badly. I love looking at this really 70s' vintage shades my mum gave me from retroo night. I love my mum, though she's kinda unreasonable sometimes.
♥

I really want to go back to ruth's ignyte session at ym because its way better than my church, no hurt intended. but ignyte really made me happy. I don't know why.

And all the gayness in the world

2007-10-24T03:06:00.000-07:00

100th post baby!(:

Congratulations zemaine, natalie, rachel ming, amanda joy, netashya, dalreena, pauline, sophia and wanting for becoming our future prefects/nominees! I'll pull up my socks and become neater if anyone of you become prefects ok(:

Today was something like a movie marathon, but i didnt really watch instead, I slept. What else could you do in such an inviting dark air conditioned room then sleep? I think i slept through two movies though, heh. Today was basically all movies and movies and movie after movie. And everyone was sleeping and if the light was turned on by someone the entire group will start screaming in disgust, screaming at the person to turn off the freaking light, and it was really fun(:

After that was Spotlight at plaza singapura with ruth and camera whoring at different shops! Oh and there's a cotton on at plaza singapura and the things are really nice, and also forced ruth at m)phosis into white skinny jeans and a top i just randomly picked out, it was really fun(:
Spotlight had so many nice fabrics! Ruth wanted to make a cushion, so we went over to the fabrics section, where there were so many pretty bolts. There was one with ladybirds and one with deconstructed polkadots. i thought i could make/sew a dress for my dear mummy or something so i went over to look at the really classy black silk ones and the pink ones and tried to find for strings so that i could make a red corset belt for it(:

We walked around, shopped, cam whored and tried on different things, and we absolutely loved cotton on. i really want to buy things. A new jersey, shorts, a shirtdress - but my father says i have to prioritize what i want, since i already bought converse shoes, and i think i should be happy with that-. We went to dorothy perkins, DMK, shoe shops and everything. Went to Subway and Missy Donut for snacks. The doughnuts at Missy Donut sucks - they gave me a donut with melted glazed chocolate all over my paper bag.

Topshop, Mango, Forever21 and Cotton On are having such fantastic mid-year sales now. It's prom fever.!

I also wanted a mocha from Starbucks with extra whipped cream very badly toooo. And ribs and steak from Cafe Cartel. And sushi and dim sum):

It's two more days to that day and I will miss you, you fatty.
Miss you so much till I can't feel any hyper anymore, running all over the mrt station and throwing plastic bags at my face right from the train door when it is closing.

Two more dayyys.

2007-10-23T06:28:00.000-07:00

I am like really bored, yo

Nicole the Fantastic Pruner

2007-10-23T05:48:00.000-07:00

Today was bougainvillea cip.!really fun though there were alot of mosquitoes. in charge of the pruning. can you believe it? nicole the pruner.

do you need to prune your bushes? free pruning(:

today we went over to calanthea's house for rollerblading and cycling!& i had to keep ruining their fun cuz i totally forgot how to rollerblade and kept falling on my ass and calanthea, zemaine, rachel and natalie fussed over my ass and making sure i didnt fall(:
After that rachel's mum gave me and natalie a lift.! we were cam whoring in the park later while waiting. and when i got home, i realized i left my freaking phone near the roof of my house. heck i didnt even knw how it got there, i climbed up my gate to get it. Man.

Today there was big fuss over these sweets called 'I love Singapore' or something like that, some sweets nicole lai gave out to the class. shafiqah gave me this bag of pretty mentos sweets and milk sweets and planned to keep it but suddenly everyone was 'crying' from the Singapore sweets. Then i gave them chocolates and mentos sweets from the little bag(:

I'm planning to go to the gym thrice a week during the holidays. I need to workout, i have really bad flabbies popping up at the wrong places.and my tummy!
aw shucks.
Spotlight tomorrow with ruth! and Spotlight with natalie and maybe rachel ming one day!(:
Oh yeah, and for the first time today, I havent watched deathnote.

Prefect nomineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees today uh! (:

Troy likes all things pretty.

2007-10-22T02:27:00.000-07:00

hello i am very bored now.
Today will be a super wordy post,

got back our papers today, i did very bad for literature and it was the first time i ever cried over english, and my poetry. I cant believe my head inflated to epic proportions in primary schoool, i cant believe i made fun of so many people for their english, thinking i was the freaking best in the whole world in my english, like some Master in my english that i knew every single vocabulary and every single word, and aced all my english exams with ease, and stuck out my tongue to so many friends whom i actually could have made the dearest friends with.

And today i cried.!
I guess i got a big right slap back in my face by God for my complacency.. I got lots of comfort from pamela yeo and shafiqah, thanks you guys(:
I can feel my cheeks and face burning with fury and shame as I look away, my face tinging with the fury and anger, mixed with bucketloads of happiness. If i didnt fail my literature i would probably be the same disgusting person I am.

It's raining and i'm drinking yakult. I like

2007-10-21T06:49:00.000-07:00

I really want to get a tan, i want to get a bikini line, i want to grow darker but my body sucks to be even shown in broad daylight.

2007-10-21T06:04:00.000-07:00

Today is my parents anniversary! So, what you two gna do tonight? (:

I'm superman, I save your day

2007-10-21T04:32:00.000-07:00

I am like, the boredst person. heck i cant find a single thing to do.

okay okay today was fun at church. waked up, bathed and went to church super early because jillian went for her eastern women run, and i had a really nice time at church, and we had this english guy come to talk, ahahhha(:
went to check up on all the tennis lessons today and then lunched at wild rocket at this really pretty secluded place in mount.emily. it's a hotel, and its really clean. the seafood pasta and the prawns were super guuuuud!(: and they sell earrings and little bandanas and keychains and all sorts of quirky things.

Today was the primary six/secondary one cell thing. it was really cooool, cuz we're helping the primary sixes from cm to ease their transferral to ym! aunty susan was really happy today or something - her face was all flushed red and was so excited that she kept on talking and talking(:
Shopppppped at marina for quite abit, and my mum bought me a pair of arches to put inside my converse shoes and now my shoes weigh a ton, duper super heavy. It feels like you're lugging a weight around with you!

I want to go Spotlight and buy a pair of pumps and some dried flowers and buttons! I have so many ideas to make presents for people!(:

How do you hear God's voice, and how do you not know that you are believing your own impulse feelings? How do you know that it's God, and not your own fantasies and imagination?
Does God answer my prayers?
Does God love me, and does God watch over me, and look after my every step and every move?

Yes he does, yes he does.

2007-10-20T08:05:00.000-07:00

Dear child, don't forget that I have your entire life mapped out in My hands.Your future will be safe with me, lean not on your own understanding for only I can make your path straight.
Thank you God.

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for the first time today, i cried.! and ruth's church is probably one of the coolest churches around man. compared to my ym at my own church, this church was one of the most humongous churches around, and it was kind of freaky at first, but the church was really God-filled(:
And today, i thought i could face anything. turned out i couldn't, because i was really scared i went home crying and shaking/:

my sister's going for a run and heck, she complains about her shirt. she thinks she's gna be popular cuz she's going on tv for some kdjfsdjfifihtut advertisment thing that she's going to be in, and wants to decide what top she's gna wear to run.

It's time to care more for other needs

2007-10-19T06:38:00.000-07:00

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I'm really bored now, and i dont really want to watch death note because now i can literally memorize every single line.

2007-10-19T03:30:00.000-07:00

Hello, today was a horrible ollo day.
got back my results. expected my math to be much better.! but when i called my mum she was kind of happy over the phone, so yeah. i wanted to cry over my math paper but couldnt force any tears to drip out, and sitting down there happily 'people watching' the rest of the secondary one level scream, shout their asses off with joy. y'know, praise the lord. im never going to tell my two sisters about my results because its either Jillian that goes smirking her face in front of me or Ashley that thinks she's the best, she even dreams of going on CNN and getting 300 for her psle and recieving a super big prize/trophy/medal, according to her >:(
Even, my grandfather looks down on me for choosing normal acad over express/special, but i'll shove my shortcomings in his face and tell him that im happy with being in normal academic and that im having way more fun(:

I'm probably going for ruth's youth tomorrow, so that's something to be happyxxz about.

Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good,

2007-10-18T05:46:00.001-07:00

Oh boy, fujiwara really needs a haircut right now. he looks bad, he looks like a gay!): Other than that, i still love him(: I bought the cd with the special editions, and with he's so skinny you can barely see any freaking muscles on him, theré is practically no biceps or triceps on him.

HAHAHHAHHAHAH(:

2007-10-18T05:25:00.000-07:00

eoys resultss coming out tomorrow man.

today was really fun for post exam activities. soccer! tulasi was really good, she scored two goals for us and its always at the ending, where the game is finished. way to go tulasi, she even wore soccer boots! and joy too. and because tulasi didnt lace her boots properly, her shoe flew up two times(:

Tomorrow's our eoys results.!
I know my God has a special plan for me, i really trust he will work everything out and if i retain because he wants me to, by all means.

2007-10-17T05:12:00.000-07:00

I can't believe i'm thinking such disgusting things
I really want to clean my brain
who said jealousy was not easy?

(edit/)

I really need alot alot of talking, today my mind was disgusting. And who said jealousy, and envying one another, is just another form of malice and wrath? I tried enough, what the hell is going on.
I really want to take a freaking scrub and scrub my brain.

2007-10-17T02:02:00.000-07:00

Today was my second timee eating KFC since yesterday, so cool lah.!

Today was digital disc jockey, i didnt really do anything (if blogging counts for you) and when our test came, all that came out from my speakers were ghost whirring sounds, and the guy was kinda angry, seeing that i wasted three hours of his precious time and only came up with ghost sounds(:
For the first time today i realized how close __________ is to God, and her religion. I mean, man! I never knew it before, so we both sat down at the thomson christian bookstore and started talking about people getting filled with the Holy Spirit and stuff - like people falling backwards and not getting hurt, and speaking in tongues. (:
Y'know the feeling when you start doubting God/: i switch off during sermons, y'know and start reading the bible from Genesis to Matthew to pass my time, which is kind of stupid.

Okay toodles.!

2007-10-16T04:59:00.000-07:00

I am the cookie monster!
I eat double chocolate chips, I eat banana cookies,
I eat strawberry cookies, I EAT EVERYTHING!
Yum yum yum.

Some random thing i have decided to do since there's not a single thing that i can do at home.
Today was thomson again, treated ruth and rachel to kentucky, and i met my grandfather there, which is not the exact thing to make me happy. Because i dont really like him, and i dont think he likes me too. My god he has a 1001 wives begging at his feet, and he cant even stay freaking faithful to one.

2007-10-16T00:33:00.000-07:00

Omg i cant believe i have been sleeping my ass off at home for two whole days with nothing to do and watch death note for the thousandth time. Andd it sucks, because my father forbids ponning school):
eoy results are coming out this friday!

I'm on heliummmmmm

2007-10-13T17:06:00.000-07:00

I feel like an antisocialist,

if you count getting yourself engrossed in books nerdy. I'm reading Jodi Picoult's Picture Perfect, its really good but I don't really understand it. I'm getting the deathnotee2 cd today - very soon i will have an entire collection. bwahah. then i will officialy become a nerd.

Yup, I'm proud to be a nerd.

I dont know how to communicate and make friends with people, i dont know how to make people happy. I'll just try to please everyone :}

My sister bought skinny jeans, which is soooo unfair, but now she finds it tight, which makes me want to laugh. Who told her to go and buy a pair of skinnies which costs over sixty and now she finds it too tight. Hahahhah so much for trying to fit in with the trends. Suckaaa(:

I want a pair of jeans from pull and bear. y'know what i cant even fit into my first pair of jeans already, disgusting. im fat:( My sister keeps laughing at me for being much more chubbier than my two sisters - and i satisfyingly stayed at 43kg. Who's the sucka now man.

I never demanded for perfection,

2007-10-13T00:46:00.000-07:00

Omg i really hate wearing pullovers, especially in disgusting singapore when the sun smiles on you for almost every hour. My pullover can only protect my phone, and thats it):
Today while waiting for ruth to arrive at amk hub, i was stared at by so many people and lians, probably because my brand was so big. And primary sixes and fours have boyfriends.! some of them were freaking making out infront of me.

I feel so tired, and wet from the rain.

Tooooodles.

2007-10-11T08:43:00.000-07:00

My sister thinks matsuyama looks like a greek god, and calls fujiwara a praying mantis. Man, like when did fujiwara even look like a praying mantis-es. Now who is the white praying mantis now huh huh(:

2007-10-11T08:17:00.000-07:00

I had a very big catfight with my mum
Correction,it was humongouss

Stop mooching around, you ass

2007-10-11T03:12:00.000-07:00

Eoys are like, finally over. I lost fourteen freaking marks just because i forgot to write qin shihuang's popularity and deng xiaoping's achievements. I hate you now, xiaoping >:( almost every paper was hard. As long as I dont retain already then can. I'm happy.

Today was shopping at junction eight with calanthea, zemaine and rachel. We ate macs then went looking around. Couldn't buy my face masks, though:) Bought a shirt from a pushcart and a pair of maroon ankle socks from mini toons, and then mucked around.

I don't wanna upset my parents, they're counting on me

2007-10-10T02:04:00.000-07:00

I just watched the one last surviving part of battle royale.
that tatsuya is really lucky. four girls can fight and shoot themselves and die just for him. he must be hot man. One girl poisons his food, the other gets angry and then all of them shoot each other. then fujiwara comes down naked and stares at the blood.

like, wow

2007-10-08T02:02:00.000-07:00

I think this is like one of his super unglamourous moments. Like scuse' me, look at his laugh, it looks really gay. Reminds me of the time where he laughed like a mad ass(:

2007-10-08T01:42:00.000-07:00

I'm seriously a butt full of ugly lies. Its disgusting, just makes me want to bend over the toilets and start puking all my sinful ways out. it's absoulutely disgusting.

Someone save me,

My sister just went off partying to Wonderland.

Today on the bus i was as silent as a bee(not much) until amanda started talking about fujiwara tatsuya! which, apparently set me off like a cannon, and she finds him average looking! Oh my oh my. I'm hyperventilating. He is damn hot, lah. Ooooh, and my eyeballs grow big manxxxz.

Oh and guess what? Ling Ling sabotaged my lovely hair with one bunch of white, ugly coated blanko hair. I dont know, im growing old! Oh and i have red, pink, blue, silver, green and all sorts of different colours in my hair, you just have to look properly. I already found green, anyway

2007-10-06T20:11:00.001-07:00

You make me angry la, you

2007-10-06T19:58:00.000-07:00

Stop trying to ensure the world would be so perfect. Stop moulding the world according to what you expect of everyone. Stop trying to be a duplicate of everyone, for the past six months? Wake up, homie. Not everything will be going your way, Missus.

oh no no no.
my lip has inflated to gigantic proportions. I peeled my lip, and bit it, and clenched my teeth inbetween the flesh crying out for mercy, so now my lip looks lopsided and ugly. so much for beauty, man. i look like a goldfish. and the ions thing really works, im fully awake now.Ehwwww, i look like a protruding goldfish.

Shopping with ruth, and thomson plaza eating spree after eoys! and eoys will be overr sooooon, so i will not be using this stupid word anymore, eoys.

Halleujah, Halleujah, Halleujah, and the angels sing

2007-10-05T21:23:00.000-07:00

Watch out, im gna be emo.

Whose side are you on?

2007-10-05T21:06:00.000-07:00

today was the first day i ever dared to skip guitar, because I never had the freaking guts to not turn up for guitar practices sooo, helleujah, haha :)

As said,im using my mugging time to blog! My mum gave me some weird negative ions thing to wake me up and make me focus, which is good because it was the first time I didnt fall asleep while mugging, or dragging my feet over to the computer to watch deathnote, kinda wakes me up watching people get heart attacks. And youtubing :} Omg and yes, tatsuya. oooooh

I'm actually barred from using the laptop during my eoys period.

While flipping through the old photographs while rummaging through my mother's old things (man,she was damn skinny when she was in secondary one) i saw my sisters photos, and regardless to say, my angmor-ish sister ashley is super cuteee, compared to now. I feel like pinching her cheeks, so pinchyish! And touching her braids. She was so cute, compared to now :D

C'est la vie

2007-10-05T07:16:00.000-07:00

Omg i was such an ahlian in primary six when i helped esther set up her blog.Ehw.

oh pls..its not some offence or anth im not hacking okayy! its like im helping estyy do up her blog cuz' im an angel dropped down from heaven!!anww...umm esty wats bored pple of the world unite coz its REALLY weird. MUCH.uhhumm...im damnn boreddBORED PPLE OF THE WORLD UNITE!haha im SOO lame; lolxTTFN________________nicoleeeeeeeeee

I cant believe this was what i wrote in primary six. Can you believe it can you believe it! Ehhhwww.

You're my heart's jealousy

2007-10-05T06:45:00.000-07:00

I've decided to blog in between my study breaks, because I don't want to sink into the wonderful depths of my textbook for every single minute. so im blogging here and you should be thankfullll(:

I'm joining sicc tennis, which clearly screams my lack of commitment out loud :O and for starters, i quit my guitar lessons when im already up to the fourth stage. and im not even going for guitar tomorrow so Wilson's gna bonk me on my head, screaming and yelling at me when I go there to pick my sisters up with my mother.

I feel kinda emo now, considering the fact that I have to get back to history in five minutes cuz my break's gna be up soon. I slash my wrists with different colours.

tgif

2007-10-05T02:12:00.000-07:00

please, i may have all that i really want. i look like i own the whole world, but actually i don't, cuz my world can come crashing down any minute. Dear God, please help me on this.

i bet my sister's partying her life away now,since her eoys are over): And, she even went out to buy skinny jeans, which makes me feel even worse, cuz all my sisters are getting skinny jeans wayyy before me! And she's going for some fancy jacuzzi party at a hotel with her friends.
I still have eoys until next thursday and it makes me freaking angry just thinking of it. i would like to chop off heads nowww. im supposed to be mugging yet im glued to the computer watching deathnote 2. i bought the cd too y'know, so i can easily access fujiwara's face. His side profilee is damnnn guuuuud man(: Haha but he looks kinda gayy when he's crying because he looks like he's humping the woman.

today we had basketball tests, and i did rather stupid and bad. cuz i cant dribble and do a throw in, and i cant do a chest pass? but lianne did pretty well, and she didnt deserve the marks i got because she partnered with me.

I'm still mugging, and using my study break to blog, and my sister's still partyingg.

And bring me back to the heart of worship, cuz You're everything I ever needed

2007-10-01T07:08:00.000-07:00

Oh my god my bolster smells really good now. No idea why

Burma, I'll be praying

2007-10-01T06:49:00.000-07:00

Omg.
Would the army in Burma stop killing the monks? I mean, you're going against your own religion, and you're killing thousands of monks. I just went teary eyed just now, heehee. I pray for you, Burma :)

Someone from the office went out to there, and came running back when there were shots being fired. He said they were being shot up into the air, and into the crowd too. That was around 2:50pm.

He didn't see anyone being hit, though a girl told him that her friend was hit. I heard the gun shots too, but it sounded alot like clapping. So I went out to look. People were running back, and some were just staying in the place, and some were walking back towards Sule Pagoda. I was reading the news on a blogger's Cbox, and it said that at least 5 monks were dead at Shwedagon Pagoda. My sis had already called home and told my brother not to go to work. I called home too, and also to my father. He told me to stay at work and not to go out.At 3:03 pm, I saw a large group of people coming up from Bo Gyoke Road, from Pan Soe Dan side, and joining the group near Sule Pagoda.At 3:10 pm, my boss told us all to go home. He said he'll give some of us a lift, so I went home with him. When we got to U Htaung Bo Circle, the road to Shwegondine was blocked, so we went around, took a shortcut and emerged out from the road near Lumbini Restaurant (formerly an ILBC school). I was taken to home first.

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I was watching the news when it came on at 8:00pm. The first news that came was to report if anyone was forced to donate money and food to the protesters. Then, what came next was other unimportant news like planting jatroba curcus, and visiting factories and stuff. On at the end of the news, it was announced that during the clash on Sule Pagoda Road, 1 unidentified person was killed and 3 were injured because of the shooting, and that some police officers were injured.

My friend said I was brave blogging about this when I am confused about where I stand. I was not being brave. I am a coward hiding in the office. At first, I started removing my photo in my profile, and was going to hide the posts that provide personal details of me. Then I decided not to because I am not doing anything wrong.In the midst of all these chaos, I am very afraid. I am afraid for myself, I am afraid for my family, and I am afraid for the country.

http://www.xanga.com/dawn_1o9/618271640/updates-from-myanmar.html#comment

God, please be with Burma. They need Your unfailing mercy now, they need Your special touch. Be with them.
Amen ♥

eoys sucKKKK.

2007-10-01T03:20:00.000-07:00

Yeah, and I dont really give a freaking damn on what you think.

through those darkened days

2007-10-01T02:57:00.000-07:00

You swiped me and surprised me with a terrible shock, I'm not gonna think of you the same way anymore, I'm not going to put you down anymore. I'm not going to upset you no longer. Get well soon, and I love you very much. Please don't leave me crying by my side. The mix of emotions I feel right now, my heart is in my mouth. ♥

I hate this.
I'm so happy riding on 855 with amanda yap and my mother strikes me with a big fat bomb. like wth, it makes me so pissed thinking of it. And to make things worse, I keep thinking of what's gna happen, and that makes me even more angrier.

Just imagine if someone you love so much dies and just leaves you hanging by the thread. like what, i didnt even get so say goodbye to my grandfather and he just left me here with my other grandfather who only cares whether i geta frigging phD or doctor's license. I bet he thinks I'm also putting down the whole family and slamming them on their faces by chooosing normal academic over express.And like, so what if im a freaking late developer?As much as i really want to say, i hate my granddad and I dont know whether God is listening.

I need someone to talk to nowwww.

I feel like my eyes have been dripping with tears for the last two hours while having tuition

It's exams, yet I'm really angry.

>:(

2007-09-30T05:53:00.000-07:00

my mind's breaking down at every sheer thought of you
So you're gonna keep delaying this trust of mine
Fate is now, i'm yours
I hope nothing is too late, I hope the day will be saved
♥